10/16/2003

Beaudry at 5th

he says "let go of description, keep it in the background" lower the attenuate it separate of controlled 'be-ing' after the sun sets fog plastered in Santa Monica B watches her reflection break between window panes frame to pane to frame to pane hand to face "a sure tooth" a revival of medical conditions against remedial economic condition als pre-conditions "is" and walk by another frame or frame

not no (lost: as in death) one says attention to description background it in keeping "lower" turn them all down turn over one by one little hot cakes grow ing the pan battered and is it 5th or 6th the time is left the timing becomes Arco Plaza pavé walkway ("someones idea of a french man reflecting on reality") the pain killers stop work-ing free-ing test-ing

Beaudry at 4th

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hospital gown flip flops change rolling pocket to to a district crying dis-regarding all notice of community friendly-ness posted on a concrete light pole intentionally care-less pointer on the dial points up and to the right up and to the left culpable points to another line: you've you are are you of the in difference negotiated in attention or in any agreement ob-stacle that "necrosis in the left and right lower extremities" needles against the back-drop or gray (anti-skyline) disjunct, squares square leading to rolling pocket change handed out during lunch during commute during not not not not not not not not not not. is around the corner oriented in final right left-ness

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to the failures of pull of the dress of the hospital change the pocket of the balance district that it shouts without paying attention to all the warning of friendly-ness of slight the indicating community fixed to neglected a concrete one of the post intentionally in the points of the dial raises and to the right raises and the left guilty points to another line: you've you are you are you of in the difference negotiated in the attention or any obstacle in the agreement "necrosis in left and right the lowest extremities" the needles against the context or (against-horizon) disjunct gray, square of the squares that leads to the balance that the change of pocket distributed during lunch during exchanges during are not around the left-ness corner oriented in straight final

10/15/2003

Beaudry at 3rd

it isn't something to step in front of at 4 in the morning even a pigeon knows that if B steps forward and doesn't look right or left then evenings dreaming is lost: so pulling up Eliot's (old) stakes and moving (fields) the circus to Olsen's house B's eyelids flutter hospitals blues plastic shower cap flip flops, evolved by nature and repeated over each act "you can't paint it" pound it in till it is instantly an example a behavior a principle something isn't stepping a front in of to pigeons a even the 4 morning in the toes hanging swinging over the ground (cement shelf) singing "paint the sky blue" in a Brazilian dance band four eight five six it up into statements statement stemming into quietly you you

10/10/2003

Beaudry at 2nd

should you speak it (or not) when driving when sleeping envious acting portrayed while burning in the reflection off 80 stories of glass: B waits and waits again to show it as a sign or flag but not seeming to sincerity pulling out Fromm and feeling better as the hand is, the pocket (should you speak it) a cash transaction "oh, nostalgia mingles with September" speak it driving or not when when as if worshiped but forgetting to it the glass lip is flared in the flies swimming die anyway pulled back after extending into the street and back distinct anxiety returning unbroken viewing continuous (it isn't the events it's not the events) though meaning presently is the speaker speaking unintentional sucked back coughed out of the bronchial presented upon the contracted literalist disappearing perspectively away time marked by drawings of marine and plant life

B waits one more that thirteen no frail matching enclosed supported unsupported structure "encouraged to yell" hey hey hey hey hey hey hey hey hey hey hey hey hey hey hey hey hey hey hey hey hey hey hey hey hey hey hey hey hey hey hey hey hey hey hey hey hey hey hey hey hey hey hey hey hey hey hey hey hey hey hey hey hey hey hey

it isn't echo or myth and fire isn't always stolen or blown by winds of hilly seas comparative ly sentenced to short syllabic words, how do you get absolute from a smothered murder?

B waits one more than fourteen unable not failing wrapped up not lingering (if there is hunger then it is dirt and rocks) no tongue licks however in ears, do you remember "should you speak it"

10/09/2003

Beaudry at First

to to to to conceptualize to reduce/renew a stable house/meaning to act inward away from the an outward larynx to oppose that tertiary thinking that written to

us/you as terms: life-less plus equals some one you/us know as secondary as as sociation arguing (under her breath) then writing in this concrete wall was a pre-speech a fore

warning undecided structured with in: under B's hat floating moths talking to the examining lice both obdurate "no please listen to me" oh fuck off up at the Bonaven

ture moth-1 says "get this unspecified decided thing out of your mouth" moth-2 "I won't take a position, not now" (Pound rolls over Der rida) lice-1 looks up at the street sign "say something emo

tionally rinding!" forget Carey Grant forget that movie with Spencer and Hepburn forget them all pull together your cameras survey it agree that you don't know if it's a fit

an intuitive issue your inten tion and lip flapping as if you knew before you spoke you you you equations of speech of tonguing to to to to to to to

10/03/2003

Sunset at Beaudry

parallel to the Harbor freeway P's feet slip from out from her robe that's the pain used as interchangeably as means to a rest put a rest put and and and

suggesting abate-ment mercy in justice justice is signatures lined along side exactly opposite (not exactly) on hardened narrow street like as each toe

pulls slightly apart the air between 'the fresh air of morning cooling in the glow of the orange sunrise' P pulls out a letter and reads: Dear P, you have been cordially invited

to a cocktail fund raiser at the Disney Hall BBQ and Ball. Please rsvp by 12 12 12 12 12 1960 and and then eye up arm down leg forward 'ah Allah'

take or pick up one letter at the beginning forget that the time tells you to awake awake and then then then conduct just maintenance brooms on Sunset at Beaudry

and the proceeding continue: "Oh, horrible, oh horror, it's not a manner that's worthy" open it up reduce comparisons along statements about statements of playing fair interchang

ing your view that the time is telling you to "wake up and sing along with the beautiful world, world" raise it rear it respect nothing nor nourish those little rates (rats)

keep keep keep walking keep walking pull out that Woody Guthrie record and sing along "I'm leaving the border for a former life and job just let me stay I'll pretend to belong"

10/02/2003

6th and Spring - fall pre-fall

F picks up paper trash cups leaves from the gutter sidewalk humming and singing quietly "I'm free to fall to fall fall" down a stretch of 2nd street after walking away losing sense of time streets: maintenance careful temperate roving pages corners turned up folded over a face mayor Hahn against a Palestinian victims arm bleeding. up up into the bag into the can as not opposing moderately reactions resulting joined practically sing "my editor editor-ditor wants more syllabics syls... labs... ics ics... icsss" down down into the bag bag go bag saving the city from the massive trash piling on every street every Homeric- ic-ic, "would you call this environmentalism?" (surfeit) protection safe guarding conservationist singing Woody Guthrie 'Deportivo' one way two way roasted almonds on white toast miles out on the 101 to Ventura dotted:

from West valley Division bused to Van Nuys hearing sentencing bused to LA county

mens...

can you stay awake for days? it's physics, so they say at NYU or USC or UCLA or Berkeley or Stanford or John Hopkins, it's

Adverse to change not subject to adverse ness ness Take the external thought (some think it's action)

F pulls up his trousers

10/01/2003

6th and Spring - late late summer

why would she be defamed not only dead not only those (these) are the questions that can be asked whether looked at blindly/blank like: hit it hard take a word that no one (almost) knows/understands pick one power mixer with "wide" expression P listens carefully not knowing more though Iago walks back wards perhaps permanently unstructured no longer seeing through Punctuation, the picture or pictures that line walls thrown mutable still eyeballs never silent varia-tions whether dis-figured re-cripples ignorant grumbling "it's genre" it's billboards roman tic violent visions of a thousand fucking in the hills of Hollywood complete lust-land chemical helicopter sprayed full moon August "this isn't about self denial." it "I" has its place and arises everywhere every often making its victim "I" break down buy a gallon of gasoline and light up spell sections editorial souls out in third world space (person) the rocks between Mars and the dust in my eye "I" isn't a sum re lation on earth in perpetual description walk out de scribe walk in experience the exact speech but don't re member how it fit or how its des-cent echoed back singing:

(she's hiding in the bushes more or less a bride uncommon but luscious unsteady violently right

it's free & open the nature in her backyard it's honest 'oh, man' the oranges the grapefruit the limes the limes, 'oh, man')

9/24/2003

6th and Spring - late summer

August rolls nights of sleeping easier that days Of walking E on her side eyes open under Tarp Held up by a grocery basket No footsteps 3am

broken finger nails no hand cream bottles foot cream stacked as walks "don't" some say the interpretation isn't telepathic on Grand on based on structure on based broken hand cream no finger nails bottles as walls stacked foot cream "don't" interpretation isn't the some say telepathic based on on on Grand structure hand cream broken on based no as walls bottles finger nails stacked interpretation isn't "don't" foot cream the based on telepathic some say

9/23/2003

6th and Spring - summer again

the air in spirit appears disappears stupidity abounds and with one handed commands a transportation person in uniform & white gloves waves waves waves "What Cheer!" P whistles and the pigeons continue feeding on bread nothing new here here the heat has dropped a pan over L.A. a lid to some 'thunder lightening' no in the present some are working some are at peace some louder screeching above this weather that "Stop the Buses!" stop the cars 'YARE' bring it down stop it! P pulls off his pants and waits much cooler breezes the pigeons don't care and the boxers are plaid "FALL!" you daughter of an insolent a drowned art a shell breaking down in a leaky row boat (not a packet boat) morality rears up and the officer's waving begins the rites of summer of dogs dead in Pasadena the cat hung and disemboweled by a serialist: don't focus don't swallow don't look don't sniff the air don't reach out don't wipe your ass don't spend a quarter don't die not yet stop the water running stop the burning stop the perished vegetables waiting alone to be thrown out does the sky reflect the nature of human intelligence would you use a cloud as a comparison or metaphor or simile to decide if P is insane sans pants or sane in plaid? the words can be simple "like tiny raindrops or mist from the tubing over the entrance" the tubing the drops the water contain a message P knows it drops water tubing and whistling yes a pirate's sea chantey a devil in the grass clothes water tubing drops the hand waves the traffic stops the heat rises the sails swell the aerial display is spent