12 Months on 7th - 2
2
the clouds are never puffy here haze on a complete layer of flat gray clouds lays over 7th beat the sidewalk with an old broken umbrella black and torn they say "terror" when walking the stopped escalator it's strife when the huge fountain is stopped it's lies when the doors are closed and locked it's vengeance when the spotlight and booming voice (speaker) awakes you at 5am: throw a rock and it misses no one notices "get up and go to the Mission." intemperance when pulled into county jail and let go at 3am to walk seven blocks altercation with the staffing sergeant about the lost blanket the bag of cans the fear that invites exhilaration the hardening and tension the fingers temples battle screaming alternating "they are assholes, you are a mother fucking scum shit face," please forget the murder the son against the mother
7/25/2003
7/24/2003
12 Months on 7th - 1
1
walking in from Commerce, after riding the train in from Fontana. Cold June early morning. Kerouac is dead, Ginsburg, Neal/Dean, oh fuck even Burroughs... but not Ashbery, Ferlinghetti, Strand – forgot Bowles dead – the map of the unloving/unborn unfolds. a critic asks, "do you care about the time line?" well (long drawl) does it all happen in sequence? Or in parallel sequential waves?
7/23/2003
Pico and Olympic
The corners are curved here with access to the street for handicapped persons. Step the wrong way and you will have a sprained ankle and then be handicapped. Remember to aim for the middle of the ramp and bounce up as you hit the lip of the slightly raised curb; you will glide over and onto the sidewalk with ease. Beware of your speed at this point, you may be going to fast and might endanger others and yourself. Drop it into first gear quickly and brake. Look around before:
Your sides Split with laughter No walking here While watching the news Your sides Ache from laughter No walking here Split with laughter Watching the walking trip Stay away from doors Watch the walking fall Stay away from windows Watch the walking crawl Stay away from stairs
The contrast from ten = explaining – (talking x silence) Forget the equation(s): pull forward and park Drop the anchor Call out for Rum
‘The tears of love Flow down my face Creases of skin spread The water’s flow To the corners of my mouth Where it spits away from my head Slapping you in the face, The Red Rose Of Love, the thorns slicing your Arms as you (they) draw away in pain’
The brightness from nine = silence + (explaining / talking) Click on the calculator: reach for the sparkling water Reach for the lemon wedge Step on the accelerator Spin around Tightly
Struggling around Dropping bread Unsteady and crying From a bag Watching the pigeons To the ground Pecking pecking pecking Pecking pecking pecking Watch the pigeons peck Knock on the windows Watching the pigeons eat Knock on the doors Watching the pigeons land On the stairs
7/22/2003
Alpine Street at Grand cont.
4
They say "This Is Alpine Street," they say It because It is A DWP truck Rolls up to the corner Rolls to a stop: while While while "So you see" That is Grand No one is allowed to Pee pee On Grand Exposed these words A deception Water gushing upward No one Saying it's gushing The play "the word" sincerity Drop it Internalize it while it is Dropping dried snot Wisdom past Erinnyes speaking through Bad teeth Good wrath clean water beautiful Bodies locked Together turkey sandwich Tortillas beans rice coffee cream Dreams that followed me talking Incessantly evaporation that Turns the Street the Walls into the Words reflected by images Hepburn Driving the point on the 18th following into 19th never Watching only acting never impulsive Always impulsive in Details in lower Case words so You see This is Alpine street
7/21/2003
Alpine at Grand
3
Screaming again Backed into a Doorway blackness dark night and Screaming louder again No sleeping a version truth Some praise Grand version of Truth one that is never Reached just Space (inner) a Story about the lack of Available light drawn Lost irrelevant suffering Acquired through… Time is defined in decades Third to fourth the deeds Change from words To actions Divided between known Anger driving through the street Red black Thoughts reeling over over in Deflecting verbal continuity Screaming against The darkness stillness A car Hits a fire hydrant water Gushing fifty Feet high next To a street lamp water Creating a Shadow on the sidewalk and Street the car Is gone no One arrives It’s time for a shower Clothes off quickly washing washing Stop screaming stop Itching so
7/20/2003
Alpine Street at Grand
2
"Fuck me" The words rise And fall into a hole Single view double view one Eye blind The perspective trips Over the... walking Back then again forth to The sam' Corner fly’s Following my arms Babbling, "Fuck me, fuck you." Point to front right tires Those cars stopped The light Changes and the Thought is gone with the Vehicle the Vehicle the Cup it In your hand "Selected information" facts Say them if Promote them if you if “You promised you did” if Canaan meets my eyes if Capacity reaches if "Fuck me" will note that this isn't Pornography but the imagination in... Eager minds to learn if Subject noun "Oh love poems" I love Them they make... Cross the street yes again Cross the street around yes Reaching into a Pocket for some change a Quarter maybe a Dime who Who has dimes? "Fuck me" Corner crossed
7/19/2003
Alpine Street at Grand
1
Fatty matter Pearly smoky growing Light passing contact that sits Feeling the weight The over Belt hanging sun that's setting Peeing again this time on The grass against The tall Plants vary Then sit Stomach at attention Tie a loop Of rope is This gaining access? Keeping Possessions secret from you? that Esophagus around the basket handle Fearfully forced Into a parting Neck line Ceased and stopped Begun pushed Across by thumbs Is it Disdain? The pages flip over Stop at sketching Yellow grass Within the last time week That isn’t concise to turning The doorknob and entering thrown Confused you that Larynx sounding rough Take this the Distress the Substance the Regret but No guilt you Say "humiliation is How commitment is Gauged in equity." Oyster shining shrinking You can Smell the rotten acuteness in Vertical alpine meadows reach up Openly take out the blanket
7/18/2003
4th and Wall
6
from 4th and Wall walking to Crocker past San Pedro past it's language spell or letter it and ask anyone if and why they understand it "Do you?" the reader, are you really reading these words and if so "Do you really give a shit?" what does syntax and meaning mean to you? anything? do you understand "signifiers?"
the train from Fontana derailed in Commerce "oh we were hungry." do you know what an artifact is? and do you really... an eye on the ground one in the air deception, reality words from the LA Times
7/17/2003
4th and Wall
5
the temperature is lower in the alleys lower even here but it's Santa Monica only low clouds June weather June weather warming up Wilshire Blvd toward La Brea sings out of stores out of clothing stores:
since having all toes removed walking is a breeze a free feeling tonight the drinks will flow flowing into your mouth into your thoughts "Is this your house?"
Can I park my car? Where do you know me from and why? A person a man a woman a full time bitch car salesman beggar fearful husband pre-owned and proud loser of fortunes stand up and take you're fucking clothes off it's a prize some wish
for wish for then forget wish for then forget
7/16/2003
4th and Wall
4
put some glasses on read a so many sounds ears back forward nose sniffing the air in figure it round it well out someone in black with badges rides by and points to the left a cement mixer stops and several people walk around waiting taking tubes and attaching them to a long line take one moment express a feeling express a noticeable feeling scratch those sun spots those teary eyes that don’t focus would you be able to see if this Minnesota garden left you blind and debilitated with multiple sclerosis are we confused you and me walking back and forth