12/29/2003

San Pedro at 11th

h.1

yawning scratch fingers curled through fence tied =< pointing by name by gradually mouthing "love is..." T back to shirt to shoes cracking wood create (s) "it's equal to day of pay" van pulls away T stands eyes hands rubbing crickets as system is image mirrored in love

is concept communicate -tion- ally apple in hand is apples using apples not hands: gravy biscuits chicken lettuce apple juice isn't system (s) posed in nor fork to mouth to plate to mouth mouth re-chew pay it accomplish ments ignoring detail nor filled teeth not evidence 'is love?'

fingers (ing) straightening rubbing eye cartoon viewing after inferred re conclude (D) T finger paints window dust come notion recording 'as complete as in as un' visual T minds it past in exper (ience)d store shutters mechanical rolling now replica precious 'as ignored loving' abbreviat(d) represent(d) rings

'the best one that can happen appears whereas a cup of coffee on a table on a table in front of you the cheap things the pencil paper clippers nails rubber Kleenex the nose of hope blown heshe calculates the beginning today sometime shehe will not walk the yard construction four by two given'

12/27/2003

San Pedro at 11th

g.1

parted flair (are) one corner to corner pace mantel neckline T walks up right perpendicular street worn shoeless shirtless December L.A. roast pigment "Rose" darling reaching for water dripping: parade after money/dollar search shower bath "reach out, reach out to me" no listening one(s) all rapid

talk movement 70 today rain tomorrow wispy clouds a skip 11th up plumbing trip(sss) enthu ]once[ siasm intent sympathy from "Main" from mother from father tional told by bytold "ah, sun heat us, oh moon cool us" gossip-sip re ferred by T's right shoulder bird "out to me reach"

frogs form lines: the pasted temperature = ball bells stapled to walk one picture dead horses staples to the door photo Kandinski from painting away in snow a 'various people' doing

pasted racked into a closet around the post the coats are are all blue in a newspaper the hats lined LAPD article facing outward of officer(s) in even duty rows MTA 81 twenty people standing local service south down Flower are closed street moving bus covered eyes

12/23/2003

forget jameson

12/22/2003

Washington and San Pedro

o.3

the UM of significance (it a) friction of whirr before the chewing paper support now sings it with tank reading of paper of support of blow (ing) (range of mountain) this speech of the future speaking of paper goes far gives

to a dawdling that the manner "babies for above" in this corner of the conclusion considered the ]be[ street the pretty robust block of smiling unmanageable cutey u has utifully tired few engage (lishment) of facts

around the covers to surround a breakfast push sheets "the my feet have my legs to have it my, my" slightly descended French (cy) central father of transport observed fried batter each where(is) thrown apart from the sky which judges have freezed under ly planets

12/16/2003

as much as much is much...

12/13/2003

Washington and San Pedro

f.1

paco is backed up (forgot ee)[e e] associated with either isn't one two in visual embod facial y T lies on vinyl seats head in first hands in backedup "remove these irons from my legs, oh lord" singing it's never agreed a upon a pon gagged

when sighing discerning tangling "one more hero dancing dancing a jig up" handled down stairs lights bulbs switches long rows of coffee mugs T screams "FUCK LET ME" FUCK LET MEFUCKLETMEFUCKFUCKLET Meee officer Jeffrey not in these widely used medical definitions

as much as much is

12/12/2003

Washington and San Pedro

e.1

beveled cut glass crawling feed it brick back "tie the ropes around tie them good and tight" two walking

toward to ward T in pajamas blue & silver

flashlights battery tools both coming eaching(ing)er is talkliketall wide grins heads hands phan tom(s)

punched comings ]goings[ "poor dirty blanket, man oh

man" getting moving overing ending sitting intoing side walk sliding to the car, "struggle don't stru

don't strug" el the door cut glass brick and

back to both face hunger creeping(er) vines kissed

12/11/2003

Washington and San Pedro

d.2 (Ford) each glance looks at dreams from T inside and burns the frontal window of the van which was broken by the cart parking food miscellaneous goods lot where is reversed depending upon in excess the surface of another thought walks brings up the reaction that sexual intercourse with the word this the hill on Hill which "are grasped in ground/street above the feet this!" it became tense the range of paper bag T sleeping bag fragrance this is dried the window inside stops the foot which "has sexual intercourse" the range which is struck strongly was packed and is still parked each glance which was bound with the string was kept under the feet this becomes tense reaching pulling by doorways under? each glance that between always broke the position of one place this/which burning marks each glance pushes urine

12/10/2003

Washington and San Pedro

o.2

the meaning um (it has) of the snore friction before chew of paper support now sings char it blow support paper (ing) reading (mountain range) that speech of future paper eak(ing) walks far

gives to a stroll the way "babies for above" in this corner of the conclusion considered street ]be[ unmanageable smiling pretty robust cutey block utifully tired few facts enging(lishment) around the blankets

to surround a breakfast leaf "my the feet have my legs have my, my" French slightly sunk (cy) with centric transport father eyed fried spoiled each where(s) thrown outside the sky that feels own planets freezed under ly

12/09/2003

Washington and San Pedro

o.1

drag hum meaning um (ha) before the paper stand chew sing reading ing (saw) now paper stand slam talk speaking eak(ing) future paper walk away stroll way "babies up"

on this street ending corner seen block sturdy cute bow tie smiling unruly utifully ]be[ tired few deeds it enging(lishment) around blankets a wrapping a foil breakfast "my

feet own my legs own my, my" centric con parent (cy) transport lightly sunk French eyed fried battered every where(s) pitched out planet sitting sky freezed down own ly

12/06/2003

Main at 6th. (for the The Eastside Sinfonietta)

5.1

walk away to line stand breakfast at 5am silver aluminum baseball cap pulled down "they say happy means now, it"

microwaved out back punctured plastic fork container wrap cheese food [minutes] fin ished (ing) iskers wh no t cl eaned (so soon) g- iant stripper facing out eyes staring down at nothing longs legs shorts jeans heels striding "ask the night manager"

5.2

expression a literal: focusing on a asphalt connection whether concrete pebbles stacking sand on their heads walking off [see dark fade(ing)] goats on to happy ends split be tween pasta cheese sauce gnocchi red sauce steak porter cut "no room service here?"

Main at 6th. (for the The Eastside Sinfonietta)

of the of of the of the of of the of the

the cat does not see the mountains today of the

4.2

shut out change impossible knob preventing one opinion steps up to the door

very heavy suit jacket in soaked rain lead ing time in point

4.3

practical(ity) offense error resign only egre (giously) gious known 'sehr bitter' players in dipping French bread to toasting nothing none no one step back out

4.4

deserted 3am 'Taurus' round one corner rounded as audience over come duende

floating up over 6th street up smoke two women a man a

4.5

the of the the of the of the the of the of

cat the does see not mountains the the of today

erica jong looking for amelia earhart in a snow storm

12/04/2003

Main at 6th

c.1

power & adjectives a leg tossed across the street (right/left) torn bleeding H smells with one nos tril one set of tongue buds:

echoing trash truck slamming along intersection(s) on 6th content to to process having where respon sible pairing is halt

ed modeling TV ways cabled bled tied overhead processes content as a construction phe nomenon (artery

loosed) "HELP?" determined by processing rounding average ing presented(ed), H screams! Screaming "fuck the examination!"

pulling move it to it with force to it to H knows abnor mal tearing artery throbbing (right/left) street tossed mean

responsible (ing) counting 12 from 3 eyes on a face cross and the budding process (es) plucked scratched three

from

12/03/2003

Spring Street I

Main at 6th

r.1

twisted ankle sore lips: in be tween H wakes his arm severed a cross the street fingers curling (un) yesterday building ball two doors boarded garbled (ing)

sentences as meeting as fa cilities order/asked col lect today "are you feeling nor mal, sir?" arm & sleeve raising waving pointing up/down

"come on over" make absolu tion a goal replaced by an invitation to crawl into a jungle a primitive 'ah, corner' a-real land

H eyelids drop

settling into a

a nice bath

11/30/2003

, Hamlet farting smiling and all/or

Diagram of Landing IV

q.2

H lacerates hand with a razor blade and bleeds that the richness in the observed minute then another time another time to one cognate to one "birth put it put it generally" looking at H around it singing in the street in the street one another

Telemachus one wild other fuck(er) shown mother who dances assisting(ed) night to negotiate droppings pigeon or obscenities crying out of the hawk

no 'DASH' in the back part

"of Spanglish Cuba Cuban you asshole" screaming oh, you say(s) unhappiness of the word conditional is marked by the lack lack of alertness minute to draft updates in mine embolism-ism-ism

pulmonary of death be-it of the mother reached and emitted to a diverse street to informing(ed) to sing walking of men "slaying its tender slaying its porters, when waiting, loot of wait when waiting?" isn't waked up H not now none to know this isn't

the second time that happened(ing) it's under the aluminum awning it piled up boxes a soft hand of bandage(ed) to be worried on as to describe connected in the light of day of history(ical) to involve two eyes a count of a card none-exist(ent)

none of return concrete of the entropy of dark(end) (if you look at above)

11/27/2003

Diagram of Landing IV

q.1

H lacerates his hand with a razor blade and bleeds it's fortune in the minute noticed then again again to one cognate to another "birth put it commonly put it to" looking H around the corner onto 3rd street

"thrown into the street" another Telemachus another shown crazy mother fuck(er) dancing the night assisting(ed) to deal a droppings pigeon or falcon screaming obscenities on the 'DASH' in Spanglish "go back to Cuba you asshole Cuban" oh, you say

say unhappiness is conditioned marked by lack of alertness lack of minute to minute updates on my mother's death by pulmonary embolism-ism reached and sent to 4th street to informing(ed) several men walking singing, "slaying your suit

slaying your boots, while waiting, waiting for loot while waiting" H isn't awake not now no knowing this isn't the second time it's happened(ing) under the aluminum awning he has stacked boxes a tender bandage(ed) hand

worrying about how to describe engaged in history(ical) daylight to involve two eyes one inch from a cardboard no-exist(ent) concrete dark(end) entropy (if it you look up) returning no

11/25/2003

Diagram of Landing III

z.1

engaged(ing) activity repeat it(ing) "I don't care how juicy they are - already nough" a H whispers "will you take this/these ants?" with the house it/they live(s) in

tents put up red deep black rope pulling since complexity electric bulbs hung(ing) hanging to somnia-manic sleep gently however consumed hammered-ing Ceravno and Astra dancing around tapping a hat explosive brim run run run run run

chanting

"take my hand, take my arm I'll take you to the sea"

singing

"my hand take are take my arm to the sea to take"

H rocks back once forward the soup sign reads Circe around a circle painted red [faint-ing spread sausage in order by length] width staked attached nuts bolts pole run run run run run

did she say epistemological eatery engaging-ed activities re-re-repeated it not well done enough an Aretha hand slides over the counter "I say Franklin was my man" kite & key that's what we'll be-iac

11/21/2003

, Ophelia rug burn and all

11/20/2003

Diagram of Landing II

y.2

to choose above the waiting of the garbage another time H: the puncture of hydrant of fire opens comes to is one eyeball 'reading, absorbed land intuitively one pushed(ing)' that it leaves to fall the random jumps secure on the ground H eyeball of accident plurality 'safe damage' that is eyes H eyeball of function of gut = an only guttural eyeball attack/incursion of 6879432 when back stages H had reached for eyes of paper stage composition to cover girls not only one another algorithm "baby, oh, baby" not to be that the perception of push-ups that toeing lightly around the great time of I sing of the Grand Street after raised in another way scripted empty eyeball H in consequently

11/19/2003

Diagram of Landing II

y.1

picking up trash again H waits: fire hydrant hole opens out comes an eyeball 'reading, absorbed an intuitively pushed(ing)' ground dropping a plurality accident not random eyeball spits H jumps 'secure from harm' it's a gut function guttural = 6879432 eyeball eyes H single eye attack/incursion? when steps back H has reached for paper eyeball stages makeup to cover girls not just another algo-rhythm "baby, oh" except push-ups perception toeing lightly around the corner Grand Street tense past other-wise raised scripted eyeball H empty in a therefore

11/18/2003

ringing out the

Diagram of Landing I

z.1

once juncture stepping lavatory cutting soap "hanging the bar over the faucet, high"

ho

scrap nails air beauty spray

gutters swept brushed hair

other than the

vacant lot T is

freezing and screaming

Japanese insults at pedestrians "oh, just missed medication, blah, blah, blah, blah"

z.2

a time soap of the cut of lavatory to step on of juncture "that it hangs the bar on faucet, rise"

ho

the scrap iron nails to the spray of the beauty

of air the gutters had swept the hair brushed to the exception

of the crowds vacant T is congeal(ing) herself and to cry out insults at

Japanese pedestrians "oh, medication lacked just, blah, blah, blah, blah"

11/16/2003

Cahuenga IV

x.1

of wide ideas pupils the

historicize it – take some 'language' put in a bowl add water and salt and egg whites: buses are rolling again what does E think/say the environment within the rolling thick exhaled glance stare(ed) stops talk

distressed personal absence restricted in someone's ability "people of France" E removes his clothes and becomes Canadian not caring not relieved not knowing(n) seat neighbor moves away "pushing don't push So hard" wide pupils wide ideas talk

x.2

ideas pupils of the wide

historicize take some "language" position in a source bowl adds the targets of the water and the salt and the egg: buses is rolling again what does and think/say the atmosphere within densely exhaled charged it

of the shutdowns of stare(ed) of the look of the balance the personal absence caused sorrow restricted in the people of the capacity of someone's of France and acquittal its clothes and gets to be Canadian

taking care of them neighboring movements released of the seat of knowing(n) next(to) pushing does not push(so) hardly of don't to move it ample of the

11/13/2003

Cahuenga III

a.1

individual leading in to an ethic of love "of love in me and me" E bites her middle finger left hand curled around arthritis little finger says to middle finger "respect me, others of otherness-ing" don't

provide frame when works insist Kant on ethical people problems don't mean youthem "oh love ethic" singing under plastic/ nylon sheets turn it over subjective singular plural-ity difference movement(o) "oh god help me" this aching aes-the-tic

solar attacks solace attacking "G wants hot cocoa" continuous recording forward to a destination a passing by of stores on Temple movement advance implementing 'modern' spread over elevation causing vertigo E says "projecting myself-self to you to-you you"

"my love ethic" dancing dance around me as around portable toilets naked E lusts-a a-power a-pole a fragment(o) thought(s) turning ignoring "love ethic is mine" asserting the bus forward without methane or diesel nor "the ethic of love"

a.2

individual leading inside to the a-ethical of the love "of the love in me and me" and E bites her left hand of the wary average finger around the arthritis that little finger says "to don't" of the otherness-Ing-Ing

of the average finger "respects me, another one" supplies the frame when the works insist Kant on it youthemyou ethical of the "ethics of the way it don't them problems the peoples of the love, oh" that they sing under the return

of plastic nylon of levies the excess that movement(o) subjective singular of the "god of the difference of plural-ity oh me aided" this aching aes-the-tic continuous writing of attacked of the hot cocoa of solace solar of attacks "G wants" onward to a destination a ticket close to the store

in executing advanced of the movement of Temple 'modern' the exceeding rise of the propagation that cause(s) the vertigo and says "to project myself-myself-self to it a-you you" of the "dances dancing my ethics of the love" around me as around

the undressed a-polar region of the a-power of lusts-a-ssuming of the portable toilets and one thought(s) of fragment(o) that it turns the ignorance of the one "of ethics love is mine" that affirms the onward busing without methane or diesel nor "the ethics of the love"

11/12/2003

Cahuenga II

A.

LADOT is running and is cheaper no visual cues not to E it's a figurative running the wind from a fly attempting to land hisher hand some seats reclined some to highlow to sit is

E says "the unconscious is re-structured, a chicken wire under a lathe & plaster(pale light red yellow)ed" repeat associations versus representations-pre buses blued striped boxes bound away the fires fire smoked into wind isn't

fuck fragments "let it flow like a river past Glendale" not St. Louis although (big syllable words) no smell to go and "why does he believe it's a lavatory?" that won't stop the bus it's a visible process isn't it

is conventional transportation whichthat disrupted down Cahuenga updown Temple to Benton & steps off and sits down on a bench (a bench assumption) not even a flux as you pull out a previous thinking and tie it to

B.

LADOT is functioning and is cheaper no visual suggestions not it and that the wind of a fly is a figurative corridor that tries to fill with earth the hand of hisher some seats had reclined some to highlow if to seat they are

and says "unconscious re-structured, a wire of the hen under a lathe & red clearly of plaster(pale yellow)ed" the associations of repeat(ing) against peeled boxes blued of the buses of representative-pre limit moved away the bound(ed) that

the fire smoked in the wind is not the fragments of the fuck "had left it to flow as a river after Glendale" St. Louis even so (great words of the syllable) none I do not smell to go and "why it believes it is one lavatory"

this will not stop the bus that is a visible process is not it is whichthat conventional of the transport disrupted below Temple of updown of Cahuenga the Benton & the stages are and sit down for low in a bank (an assumption of the bank)

not leveling a flow while you remove to think precedent and mooring cable the a

11/06/2003

Cahuenga I

E asks "what did I read?" one shoe one bare foot concept are not inadequate contradictions do not lead to a more ad-e-quate-ness left foot toes black it's all all all gray while sliding to

what what what? Temperature it's not finished now not failure is it coherent? is it finite? "oh god please hold my head in your hands" E lifts his left foot up then his right foot up

this bus no handicap services "mother fucking bus driver are idiots" and unceasing lined up ant hills ants with little books 'Oedipus book, libido book' the noise above: whir whir whir whir whir whir whir whir whirwhirwhirwhirwhirwhirwhirwhirwhir

baked finally the bread temperature turning/ed

singing,

"pencils in my hand red clouds hovering blue sky bands Jesus is a helicopter fluttering Over"

E's head up staring into the whirring a real itty itty itty built up with yakking yakking whirring around windows whirring to reflection whirring windows around E

11/05/2003

Van Nuys/Victory - 2

2
-the bus winds winding up Lankershim past Universal past Barham over the hills and into West Hollywood E weeps and walks singing "gotta get back, back gotta get to Cahuenga" crazy bug flying at -lights formation jet clouds pink and blue October dropping things dropping other things E sits and naps: the pain the lower right/left neck to shoulder pencils dancing dancing to Cole Porter drop it drop -bang klang crash splat splat bang ding dong crash splat E hears it the dropping the bus stopping the wheels popping eyes see smell it patterns dialectical conflict methane fumes as crash like splat as bang -crash klang bang splat band ding crash crash bang dong E still hears "it" dropping bus stop while wheels turning eyes popping smells see "it" still not changing not change "ya, can't wiggle into synthesis" portrayed as

2.1

the bus rolls the rolling up above of Lankershim after Universal after the Barham on mounts and in Hollywood occidental person and weeps and walks wild flight of the error to sing "started to start stops backwards, started it stops backwards starting the Cahuenga" in clouds of the spurt of the formation of the rose lights and the things leaving to fall blue of October that leave to fall others things and sit down and naps: pain the throat lowest of right/left to push the pencils that dance dancing to the drop of porter of Glue the drop splat and of the electric noise of dong of ding of the boom of splat of splat of the electric noise of klang of the boom it hears it to leave to fall the bus that for the wheels the land the eyes for seeing I smell that dong shaped emanations dialectical of methane of the conflict as the electric noise as splat as the boom and of the boom of the electric noise of the electric noise of ding of the band of splat of the boom of klang of the electric noise it still hears "--" the jamb of bus leaving to fall when the wheels that they turn the eyes that "ya wiggle while it still turns it" not to change not it "change portrayed cannot wiggle in the synthesis" as it as

11/04/2003

Van Nuys/Victory - 1

1

the park has trash cans trash and cans sometimes both out of the pocket forward in jeans coins of both the the park park cans of trash sometimes cans of clothing cloth clothes of

E thinks: there is a reason to reason where be here B thinks "oh, guardian, uh, you?" which one which of the two the two mother father the behind car hiding rear tire one right

three left in the/the in market lot parking of power versus power external/internal re-pressed? "what the hell do you think you are doing?" an LAPD cruiser blue uniform screams E steps back onto onto and

pay attention to the concrete surrounding the street the curb the flashing yellow lights mother and father and son and murdered one over the encourage-ment the cans cans park park cans of sometimes cloth clothing of clothes

11/02/2003

Los Angeles & 3rd - 3

3

let's shift our attention from questions to process an internal dialogue to outward world viewed un-effects of boiling rumination bad/good it's an answer from a future respecting the where the when-it the why-it the

how the skin reacts to direct sunlight hours eight of also dead touching forth-blood spurting again again arms crossed over E is concerned looking nails finger no nails no heal ing refusing help to need which

let's outer world changes of position our attention of questions to process an internal dialogue to the seen e-affects to boil it's of broods bad/good an answer to respect of the future where when-he why

-he how the skin reacts to direct hours eight of the light of the sun of the stirring ahead-blood also died that forth gushes again again the arms and excessive crossed-ing it talks about that that the

finger of the nails watches no nails no cure the ing who rejects aid to need which

11/01/2003

Los Angeles & 3rd - 2

2

son of Minos the simile a cow of spots three dead vat large hat in/of snakes eating herbs living along a chain link fence today "I'll trade you two cigarettes for a needle and thread" what intention reference you countered less of allowing

nets over character as power as science as pants in hand asking Hector returns to Troy fuck this that or E looks old today "I'm tired" locations: school factory prison trains run out to Pasadena

and Thetis warns B "you know those shoes?" yes those red joined street routing Trojans running across to the Mission running back with a toothbrush "wanna trade?" wanna legitimize practice mention that we are dancing tonight

de-centralized internal-ized restraint "pray me a new doggy, pray me" don't let me die honey not tonight wake me doggy pray me tonight as E sleeps no in knife-ing back slice death to bleed death to sliced

10/30/2003

Los Angeles & 3rd - 1

1

what where run of tents sun side three foot spots marked "get out of the 5 dollar a night to night" tent box tent box C's left eye going black slippers E's tennis shoes mark it internal pulled up guttural pulled out heart towing E sits against a fence head back sleeping sun side facing "it's not that hazy" an end or means action E stands scratching smiling across the intersection has mastery over his thinking viewing rationality focusing

hair gel as myth as created who in what where inter-science un-reiterate re-if-ication un-enchant produced-ed along the box housing neighbor

C blinks away the in-fection tries buckle it up where what smiling big smile E loves C loves her adapted a-domination her engineering her character planted spot in E's for-head tent box box tent moving process matter it bodies-y up ward

10/29/2003

Santee Alley 2

2

walk -away from the fashion district don't –press down enact not acting set I –and you over be I merely of -conceptions

but –nor than forgets then by thoughts tell no –but this and that your where except and –have into that for therefore and so will –that and were to

to –that and that to dangerous ban quet –know hard know love use gentle of yourself –glass yourself hear me myself me –eyes yoke of in heard

eye –turn lament just things itself face? cogitation –buried passion men war –neglect on grieved behavior myself –difference am

countenance –look you hand have gentle ness –late you desire in part do I course –pass march again upon face march hear –music me again calls

10/28/2003

Santee Alley 1

1

historian through (of in) hogwash looped/ fastened who obtains periods through (of in) possession maintain avoid "brought forth at birth"

explore the finger then the thumb: pack rations grant a "the" turn the chairs a quarter turn them proceeding past

lisping: B walks (reader intervention) importance taken you u (of in) sloth exercise forms reb-ell-ion reforms(ed) as one avoids

advantage advent edge inferior, 'the flower

in her hair blossoming-ing' a sun dried heart be-be-beating Adonis (simile) yours smelling lime likely diluted in a glass a

(of in) seas roiling er-coursing adding drops water (arrived) or not B walks hand around knob door twisting isting arrogate [claim without justification]

shoulders pushed forward standing chin chest today sullen minus one sullen minus two sullen three days ago prescript pre-jacket

pre-silence counting (of in) connect silence pre-blue eyes count looks of loving of love method pre-strained as power

hogwash historian (of in) looped through/obtaining-ed fast to possession to possessed unfast hold "forth brought avoid birth at"

10/23/2003

5th at Stanford

5th at Stanford a long line of ants crawl ing up Stanford heading to Fifth: Styrofoam Thai food H looks up and sees them disappear reappear over a rise in the cement line long stumbling pockets (not think) that walk to the next corner re-occur as as food waiting waiting so

5th at Central

shelter light rows of sixty cycle sing B flat hymns – hums rings explanations of absolute sanding controlling as the window from as peeking in of

5th at Alameda

derived from objects tossed high re-arrange mis represent several as fuel current vegetables standing saying "extreme symptoms" achieving supervised house terms (round) turned suitcases piling up ov er jogging back to step it

5th at San Pedro Street

racing across 5th H stumbles and falls nerve pinches gray beard "do you have a cigarette?" pencil pocket 12 things thinking about the stair case is a slammed up against the frozen pushed over thawed through the corner drain at San Pedro for

10/22/2003

Beaudry at Wilshire

B bites down harder hard, hardly more than content as B who figured the bits what lay between two fingers the content the cultural lines without spoken a fault line words in course showing a forced lacking personally giving conversion break it open to two bits, bites, down harder: screw torture turning finally this "someone left a package on the train what the fuck" officer Joan proclaimed out it's pervasive no pervasive him she it's big and round dramatic inconsistent enemy shadow open mass conversions playing Mozart to Berio some single string wooden plank ed instrument without hang ing suspected to bite it hard er in precise time to do to do to do marked duo decimal not two in four but opposite siding quad equally obliquely hard harder sounds identical between words

Beaudry at 7th

W wakes up and realizes she is on the sidewalk remembers someone throwing her out on the street someone throwing her out on the street the street passing between 1 = 6 and the late bus to Monterey Park 496 (they they took took the the numbers down last night) squeaking door – "Portia playing the violin in the alley the dark alley money falls down she's wealthy" the electronics store has no silence that's re-newed it's up delightful from 8 am to 12 pm take a piece of paper write the word you relate to and post them in an electronic format (if you can find) see the result results broken nose fingers ankles around the examination table grounded in eyes for obscenity scrutiny etc. that censorial obligation in any corporate partner single owner-ship ex-pur-gate place a candle on the table "light up my life" edit and delete no matter what it's consisting of cells instruments drawn from a fragrance your mother wore to 'Ray Charles' cede cede cede let it up stop take the sign as written the 'Terms Of Service' the T=O=S toss it the bricks up to the next man toss the cement up to the next man toss the bricks up toss the shit away it's given some the idea pickled sturgeon cave like existence shrouded in stucco hidden protected bye bye 'bye blackbird' petty objectionable bodies considering what that though may have at it's outer center a divided area W wakes up in the main activity a cardiac care unit meditating on a 'Carlin' rant a Shakespeare rant coupled with oxygen bottled around Beckett's neck while a pivot revolves into mid points points points points points points all thrown out

10/21/2003

Beaudry at 6th

1

"presumably no one tells you what to say write read" the sign (lettered without numbers) the big red wig and funny nose – the clown is walking with B and speak ing: parody play pretense purse purveyor placatory pretending to pronounce cartoon-ish people pacing back to confront to con strain "don't you see it?" no put some history behind it put a pencil behind your ear and sing 'if I were a stinger missile a sting er bee' I would hallucinate a beautiful world one where... walking at night slicing throats of homeless ones who who who and put gasoline in bottled water bottled beer bottled devils reality never ever ever broken ev en when weighing it remember to take into account the water weight the Mayor may not of have presumed that 9th Street became Olym pic Blvd. at San Julian no movement definite resent, revenge (no regret) malignant (watch those turns doesn't really... early end) B thinks foot ball and some end, tight. happening three (3) times

1.2

"presumably nobody says what to say to him writes read" the sample (putting letters without numbers) the great red wig and the amused nose - the clown is walking with B and of the speech: the pretending placatory of the purveyor of the of pre-tightens of the game... of parody to pronounce the people of the comic strip-ish-ish that establishes the step again to faces towards "don't of the tension that you see it?" no position a certain history behind him put a pencil behind its ear and sings "if that was a missile of the sting to the bee of the puncture" would hallucinate a beautiful world one where... walking at night which it slices the throats of nomads who who that and gasoline put in water in bottle it bottled the beer never bottled in always always broken of every of the reality of the devils to the grief it remembers to consider the weight of the water that the Mayor could of not have been concealed which 9th street became Olympic Blvd. and San Julian no returned salary to send defined of the movement, revenge (no grief) bad (really watches don't of those returned early end) B thinks the ball of the foot firmly and a certain end, happening three (3) times

10/16/2003

Beaudry at 5th

he says "let go of description, keep it in the background" lower the attenuate it separate of controlled 'be-ing' after the sun sets fog plastered in Santa Monica B watches her reflection break between window panes frame to pane to frame to pane hand to face "a sure tooth" a revival of medical conditions against remedial economic condition als pre-conditions "is" and walk by another frame or frame

not no (lost: as in death) one says attention to description background it in keeping "lower" turn them all down turn over one by one little hot cakes grow ing the pan battered and is it 5th or 6th the time is left the timing becomes Arco Plaza pavé walkway ("someones idea of a french man reflecting on reality") the pain killers stop work-ing free-ing test-ing

Beaudry at 4th

1

hospital gown flip flops change rolling pocket to to a district crying dis-regarding all notice of community friendly-ness posted on a concrete light pole intentionally care-less pointer on the dial points up and to the right up and to the left culpable points to another line: you've you are are you of the in difference negotiated in attention or in any agreement ob-stacle that "necrosis in the left and right lower extremities" needles against the back-drop or gray (anti-skyline) disjunct, squares square leading to rolling pocket change handed out during lunch during commute during not not not not not not not not not not. is around the corner oriented in final right left-ness

2

to the failures of pull of the dress of the hospital change the pocket of the balance district that it shouts without paying attention to all the warning of friendly-ness of slight the indicating community fixed to neglected a concrete one of the post intentionally in the points of the dial raises and to the right raises and the left guilty points to another line: you've you are you are you of in the difference negotiated in the attention or any obstacle in the agreement "necrosis in left and right the lowest extremities" the needles against the context or (against-horizon) disjunct gray, square of the squares that leads to the balance that the change of pocket distributed during lunch during exchanges during are not around the left-ness corner oriented in straight final

10/15/2003

Beaudry at 3rd

it isn't something to step in front of at 4 in the morning even a pigeon knows that if B steps forward and doesn't look right or left then evenings dreaming is lost: so pulling up Eliot's (old) stakes and moving (fields) the circus to Olsen's house B's eyelids flutter hospitals blues plastic shower cap flip flops, evolved by nature and repeated over each act "you can't paint it" pound it in till it is instantly an example a behavior a principle something isn't stepping a front in of to pigeons a even the 4 morning in the toes hanging swinging over the ground (cement shelf) singing "paint the sky blue" in a Brazilian dance band four eight five six it up into statements statement stemming into quietly you you

10/10/2003

Beaudry at 2nd

should you speak it (or not) when driving when sleeping envious acting portrayed while burning in the reflection off 80 stories of glass: B waits and waits again to show it as a sign or flag but not seeming to sincerity pulling out Fromm and feeling better as the hand is, the pocket (should you speak it) a cash transaction "oh, nostalgia mingles with September" speak it driving or not when when as if worshiped but forgetting to it the glass lip is flared in the flies swimming die anyway pulled back after extending into the street and back distinct anxiety returning unbroken viewing continuous (it isn't the events it's not the events) though meaning presently is the speaker speaking unintentional sucked back coughed out of the bronchial presented upon the contracted literalist disappearing perspectively away time marked by drawings of marine and plant life

B waits one more that thirteen no frail matching enclosed supported unsupported structure "encouraged to yell" hey hey hey hey hey hey hey hey hey hey hey hey hey hey hey hey hey hey hey hey hey hey hey hey hey hey hey hey hey hey hey hey hey hey hey hey hey hey hey hey hey hey hey hey hey hey hey hey hey hey hey hey hey hey hey

it isn't echo or myth and fire isn't always stolen or blown by winds of hilly seas comparative ly sentenced to short syllabic words, how do you get absolute from a smothered murder?

B waits one more than fourteen unable not failing wrapped up not lingering (if there is hunger then it is dirt and rocks) no tongue licks however in ears, do you remember "should you speak it"

10/09/2003

Beaudry at First

to to to to conceptualize to reduce/renew a stable house/meaning to act inward away from the an outward larynx to oppose that tertiary thinking that written to

us/you as terms: life-less plus equals some one you/us know as secondary as as sociation arguing (under her breath) then writing in this concrete wall was a pre-speech a fore

warning undecided structured with in: under B's hat floating moths talking to the examining lice both obdurate "no please listen to me" oh fuck off up at the Bonaven

ture moth-1 says "get this unspecified decided thing out of your mouth" moth-2 "I won't take a position, not now" (Pound rolls over Der rida) lice-1 looks up at the street sign "say something emo

tionally rinding!" forget Carey Grant forget that movie with Spencer and Hepburn forget them all pull together your cameras survey it agree that you don't know if it's a fit

an intuitive issue your inten tion and lip flapping as if you knew before you spoke you you you equations of speech of tonguing to to to to to to to

10/03/2003

Sunset at Beaudry

parallel to the Harbor freeway P's feet slip from out from her robe that's the pain used as interchangeably as means to a rest put a rest put and and and

suggesting abate-ment mercy in justice justice is signatures lined along side exactly opposite (not exactly) on hardened narrow street like as each toe

pulls slightly apart the air between 'the fresh air of morning cooling in the glow of the orange sunrise' P pulls out a letter and reads: Dear P, you have been cordially invited

to a cocktail fund raiser at the Disney Hall BBQ and Ball. Please rsvp by 12 12 12 12 12 1960 and and then eye up arm down leg forward 'ah Allah'

take or pick up one letter at the beginning forget that the time tells you to awake awake and then then then conduct just maintenance brooms on Sunset at Beaudry

and the proceeding continue: "Oh, horrible, oh horror, it's not a manner that's worthy" open it up reduce comparisons along statements about statements of playing fair interchang

ing your view that the time is telling you to "wake up and sing along with the beautiful world, world" raise it rear it respect nothing nor nourish those little rates (rats)

keep keep keep walking keep walking pull out that Woody Guthrie record and sing along "I'm leaving the border for a former life and job just let me stay I'll pretend to belong"

10/02/2003

6th and Spring - fall pre-fall

F picks up paper trash cups leaves from the gutter sidewalk humming and singing quietly "I'm free to fall to fall fall" down a stretch of 2nd street after walking away losing sense of time streets: maintenance careful temperate roving pages corners turned up folded over a face mayor Hahn against a Palestinian victims arm bleeding. up up into the bag into the can as not opposing moderately reactions resulting joined practically sing "my editor editor-ditor wants more syllabics syls... labs... ics ics... icsss" down down into the bag bag go bag saving the city from the massive trash piling on every street every Homeric- ic-ic, "would you call this environmentalism?" (surfeit) protection safe guarding conservationist singing Woody Guthrie 'Deportivo' one way two way roasted almonds on white toast miles out on the 101 to Ventura dotted:

from West valley Division bused to Van Nuys hearing sentencing bused to LA county

mens...

can you stay awake for days? it's physics, so they say at NYU or USC or UCLA or Berkeley or Stanford or John Hopkins, it's

Adverse to change not subject to adverse ness ness Take the external thought (some think it's action)

F pulls up his trousers

10/01/2003

6th and Spring - late late summer

why would she be defamed not only dead not only those (these) are the questions that can be asked whether looked at blindly/blank like: hit it hard take a word that no one (almost) knows/understands pick one power mixer with "wide" expression P listens carefully not knowing more though Iago walks back wards perhaps permanently unstructured no longer seeing through Punctuation, the picture or pictures that line walls thrown mutable still eyeballs never silent varia-tions whether dis-figured re-cripples ignorant grumbling "it's genre" it's billboards roman tic violent visions of a thousand fucking in the hills of Hollywood complete lust-land chemical helicopter sprayed full moon August "this isn't about self denial." it "I" has its place and arises everywhere every often making its victim "I" break down buy a gallon of gasoline and light up spell sections editorial souls out in third world space (person) the rocks between Mars and the dust in my eye "I" isn't a sum re lation on earth in perpetual description walk out de scribe walk in experience the exact speech but don't re member how it fit or how its des-cent echoed back singing:

(she's hiding in the bushes more or less a bride uncommon but luscious unsteady violently right

it's free & open the nature in her backyard it's honest 'oh, man' the oranges the grapefruit the limes the limes, 'oh, man')

9/24/2003

6th and Spring - late summer

August rolls nights of sleeping easier that days Of walking E on her side eyes open under Tarp Held up by a grocery basket No footsteps 3am

broken finger nails no hand cream bottles foot cream stacked as walks "don't" some say the interpretation isn't telepathic on Grand on based on structure on based broken hand cream no finger nails bottles as walls stacked foot cream "don't" interpretation isn't the some say telepathic based on on on Grand structure hand cream broken on based no as walls bottles finger nails stacked interpretation isn't "don't" foot cream the based on telepathic some say

9/23/2003

6th and Spring - summer again

the air in spirit appears disappears stupidity abounds and with one handed commands a transportation person in uniform & white gloves waves waves waves "What Cheer!" P whistles and the pigeons continue feeding on bread nothing new here here the heat has dropped a pan over L.A. a lid to some 'thunder lightening' no in the present some are working some are at peace some louder screeching above this weather that "Stop the Buses!" stop the cars 'YARE' bring it down stop it! P pulls off his pants and waits much cooler breezes the pigeons don't care and the boxers are plaid "FALL!" you daughter of an insolent a drowned art a shell breaking down in a leaky row boat (not a packet boat) morality rears up and the officer's waving begins the rites of summer of dogs dead in Pasadena the cat hung and disemboweled by a serialist: don't focus don't swallow don't look don't sniff the air don't reach out don't wipe your ass don't spend a quarter don't die not yet stop the water running stop the burning stop the perished vegetables waiting alone to be thrown out does the sky reflect the nature of human intelligence would you use a cloud as a comparison or metaphor or simile to decide if P is insane sans pants or sane in plaid? the words can be simple "like tiny raindrops or mist from the tubing over the entrance" the tubing the drops the water contain a message P knows it drops water tubing and whistling yes a pirate's sea chantey a devil in the grass clothes water tubing drops the hand waves the traffic stops the heat rises the sails swell the aerial display is spent

6th and Spring - late spring early summer

so... understanding in the... so the... taught like "uh, oh" thought and learning tight like another 'in' disposition with longing up the line of words, P & E now are feeding the pigeons one wears glasses lots of cotton jacket tennis shoes 'not an end point' (telos) and then just then E says "ordering ordering ordering I mean I mean no no no it's not not a a a significant significant" half a sandwich bottled water another bottle flattened the brooms brush away the ground the cement 'define it exclude all of it's past post-its on the wall little pictures of action rape murder blood swollen eyes broken fingers deep cuts across limbs usually razor cuts shit all over the floor the hole was missed think of it in terms of goals meta-goal meta-fuck meta (physics)' if you are then present write the remaining sentences but speak them into a... fuck principles & being 'get your culture and nature in order' E sits down looking at the street so...

9/22/2003

6th and Spring - spring

H often watches its shoes changing again to the bread and the doves that they feed five people to pass the warehouses opened in loudspeakers of the earpieces of the radios of the means the any electronic all electronic H often watch their shoes a store of the in the supplements out of service contracted great cables of the corner of the writings of the convention of the paper clip of the equipment of the food of the equipment of the film of the cars of Sprite of the tail of cocaine of Pepsi of the water and lights CHP of the equipment another passage of five people: H at night died yesterday in later of the accident of car finished a car parked in 80 miles per hour in the shoulder moments before the young adult of thought of the adolescent of the childhood of Lankershim Blvd. somewhere in that frame of the cells of brain of the time was parenting interrupted or a joined genetic tendency with abuse H of the mine of the methampheta one often watches its shoes bus to stop each to sometimes begin three of the minute simultaneously of the day for a end of the day for another one or all the part of a day mixed with the purses of the clothes for the sale "that this one is time it stopped in the edge of granularity " this one is the x-ray that defies before or after that H often watches its shoes on a meticulous period ten through the day that is every simultaneously last identical time emerges the meaning from shoes before H considers the shoes not more not ahead but also excluded/included last by temporary order, exhaustingly before "taken complexity of the competition" it is just that... a series of passages to traverse

9/20/2003

6th and Spring - late winter

H watches his shoes many times switching back to the Bread & pigeons feeding five people pass the open stores On Spring radios stereos headphones speakers any electronic All electronics H looks at his shoes many times a sandwich Shop on the corner water Pepsi Coca Cola Sprite large trucks And equipment lights cables contracted off duty CHP film Crew food crew clipboard convention scripts extras another Five people pass: H died last night in a car accident rear Ended a parked car at 80 miles an hour on the shoulder just Before Lankershim Blvd. thinking childhood teenager young Adult somewhere in that frame of time brain cells were Disrupted parenting or a genetic tendency coupled with methampheta Mine abuse H watches his shoes many times the buses stop Every minute sometimes three at a time beginning of the day For one end of the day for another or all part of the a day mingled With bags of clothes for sale "this is time stopped on the edge Of a granularity?" this is the x-ray that defies before or after H watches his shoes many times over a ten minute period Throughout the day each time it's identical to the last time the Meaning of shoes emerge before H sees the shoes not Not later but later also excluded/included by temporal Order, exhaustingly before "fuck the contest" complexity Is just that... a series of footsteps through

9/19/2003

6th and Spring - winter

let go of the details, the formality sum mer and bath review for a continuation it's red with hearts brown for blood dried on purpose the body odor vomit

ticks fleas cat litter up then without structuring with 'here' the thickness recedes minor waves enormous ly balanced syntax some sizes shoes some type feet a usage

a region: singing 'requiem' to rejoicing to moaning not mourning, foot tapping left/right left/right right/right/left/right right/left/left/right relent less the mouthing of words heard

passing by words and ringing ticks fleas utter it once or twice or spell it again over more more again over once backed into details again stretched smaller words

9/18/2003

6th and Spring - fall again

winter hasn't finally going to arrive standing on the corner by the check cashing place 90 degrees smoke in the sky winter isn't not finally happening as some wish as wishing is suspended and dependent "we look at the conditionally" remember respect and arrest shrug the shoulders and shiver as the advance "causing distress" the river heading east on spring is dry someone writing about D three flights up stood up and money for meth? 12 flights up to the roof looking out is this the case of experience the 'ing' on the end of nothing that's less & more itself of itself-ing inattentive occupied but lost in faculty? H notices a reflection a guitar a shadow a mirrored image on the inside glass the showcase the absolute dissolve limited by sunlight filter-ing around

9/17/2003

6th and Spring - Fall

Derrida stood up after breakfast and fainted � keep escape assist calf loss: sloppy ways in feeding anyone above five the crusty end is buttered up 'you' help yourself toit to it. Wayne Shorter blew it out the tiller the rudder functions like this. Can only hear the tags moving around the body of each myth focused into a dozen stories nails arcane fitted nose something water water water soap � oration broadened out flat "say, do you want to write something together?" you know noisy southern Mexico study clothes purple without the viewing before burial the yellow washed walls the darkdark room below the alter 6x6 footfoot wooden planks. H says, "next we we will bring the the bricks in in, the fences are are done the foundation is is poured." Poured into a tea cup earl gray after 10 minutes (too long) emptied into the sink a full cup of rancid teatea (too long)

9/04/2003

6th and Spring - summer

From Devonshire division bussed to Van Nuys From guilty to county from county to New shoes don't fit walking fast favor Ing the left arm swinging wildly

Tuna sandwiches center Measured from the knee eating Napkins paper Plates spring rolls buzzing around Two ears No nostrils eyelids

The temperature of the surface reflect Ing back into the windshield filtered Water dripping again through to be Routed Bakersfield to Mojave

Eighty people along one stretch of fence parking lot one Plastic out house for all no one using "it smells like Shit" pull up your pants wrap the plastic bag in another (After a quick hand wipe)

Winter then subject Watching a smile start end One eye Focused above the right ear Spring sets the Table knife

9/03/2003

9th and Olympic - somehow

13

Somehow exploring the "I" Somehow exploring the pain of "I" Somehow exploring the moments be Fore and af Ter the pain of "I"

Somehow W gets up standing Stumbling falling standing stumb Ling falling: once pictured as a Blossom described in a poem Where love is compared No, a meta Phor for an opening heart

Doorknob doorjamb door Way somehow W has enter Ed his room. Finger on the wall Lightly rubbing away a silver fish Thinking what "I" This "I" this rubbed Eye is mine?

There is a picture above the Bed Of a pitcher of "pain" wait Ing To be poured out into The Hole in W's head W waits W "I"

8/28/2003

9th and Olympic - excrete

12

excrete my leftovers on you F_U_C_K this arrangement regard it as another class 'a sort of' new/old soul meets stupidity in all of its or their emotion al moral, "to night I sing and speak," the tongue is stuck arranged along W's teeth licking 'to some extent' the walls of intellec tual excrete all s h i t into grouped by common at tribute: a group standing on the corner silently waiting for an other person/animal to ap pear and apple supplies ar ranged by type and dur ation "forming nouns from/in soto vo ce" lose the s's don't lose the uric the tinkling the trip back up the backwards eyeing the forgetting specified instructions lacking expression treatment water receiving discharg ing in a shallow grave urinate remember this is not about anything no thing no cul ture no one – the group disperses/walks away one corner. another

8/27/2003

9th and Olympic - Concentrate and

11

Concentrate and pass One signature is one More sign W cannot understand that no Equaling five divided by Two no

Three fingers raised accepted in Salute in surpass Ing a

The elimination of thought when Singing "I'm moving On I'm crawling away" Socks are gone today and

Shoes are worn Tennis hat back pack

Remember the Coat? Concentrate And/or disregard the Dirt and three Week stench of cloth and

Body forgo the shower Crawl into a Box under a plastic sheet Home home

Home singing "Fly Fly, fly I'm on my Way" my

My my approved credit In heaven I'm warm "Today

In heaven I can excrete my Soul on you"

8/26/2003

9th Olympic - head over forward

10

head over forward asleep head arms folded legs straight out: disappear stark snore-ing rain seeping into brain cells H can't tell if it's day or night singing "out in the old west we ate the prairie dog gies," we ate them on wooden spits over mesquite burning, "the smoke makes my hat smell better, etter, etter, et......rrr." snare drum on 120bpm over louder over louder over head forward handful of of of weeds begin chewing the rain has soaked the blanket: W says, "H your hat has fallen," sitting down cross legged in front of, H has come up on his elbow "does pronunciation word formation make you want to masturbate?"

10.1

direct to the legs doubled excessive the front sleepy main arms straight towards outside: it disappears rigid snores - Ing. rain that leaks in the cells of a brain that can't of H says to us if it's day or singing at night in the old west we ate the doggies of the prairie. W ate them in bowls of wood on mesquite that is burned, marks of the smoke make my better scent, to etter, to etter, et........rrrrrrr of the hat? the drum of of the trap of 120bpm of of excessive excess more noisily than a front handful of of above noise of of bad grass begins to chew rain has soaked the blanket: "W your hat that has fallen?" its hat? Seating under legged crossed in front of, H has come up from above in "does the elbow the formation of the word of the pronunciation does that wish you to masturbate?"

8/24/2003

9th and Olympic - W reaches

9

W reaches into his pocket With his right Hand his Hand disappears and loss The pain of losing Years comes quickly Back Back To here Losing disappears His hand reappears One minute of: Car parked driveway Mowed grass beer

You reach them of W in its pocket with its right hand its hand disappears and the loss that the pain of losing years comes quickly stops backwards stops here backwards losing disappears its hand reappears one minute of: The car parked the beer mowed entered of automobiles

8/23/2003

9th and Olympic - Liquid Spills

8

A liquid spills over the edge Any edge it's always an edge What would come next what next mixtures Of waste and thin wafers that Mr. D proposed down around 7th Street

The angle here is. Doesn't exist or if it did Then it would exist without knowledge "Yeah Someone would wait until the street curved Up and broke into a level difference A combination of earth and a composite Of gravel:

You take amaranth and put it Through

Some reasoning OH! some reason "It will fade as the sun sets, sun rise"

The brim of the hat crows And something no nothing knows Continuously Always Next

Grinding flour into cereal Pull up those roots - feel Feel pity for your publication

Then a resistance becomes An emphasis on placing a plastic bottle Here on on the wall or on the The the indication of fact is What's left on the corner the Corner argument to contrary Corner to principle augmented

Shave off the top layer and look Or maybe imprecision abandons: of Those thoughts of those descending Counts while change is handed back

8/21/2003

9th and Olympic - This one

7

This one that one no This one that one

Pickup the bag Grocery man bag Bagger bag bags For bagging not

For bagging carrying clothes This moment that moment no This moment that moment:

Activity increases around six am buses passing cars going By the buildings entering people speed it up? End of the Day the reverse till 'last bus' "I can see by your face You�ve been in some crazy fights" can't lock it down you Can lock it up

This day that day no This day that day

These new jeans rub These jeans aren't washed Washed not and rubbing

Sweating in the jeans sweating Rubbing red the crotch area Area around the genitals

This week that week no This week that week

R watches the double yellow lines After each car/vehicle/bicycle pass Flashing splashing light yellow is This a thing? Not something Where did this come from?

This isn't whether it's written in time Passing the car/truck on the right ok Passively waiting to wake up waking up Is active as passive as it is this one That one no

8/20/2003

9th and Olympic - Tension

6

A Korean restaurant window two For dinner three For dancing late At night, 11pm not morning Hostess answers the phone �Hello, make your perception,� The lines of tables line Up with the chair that Heads each group: a catalogue R rests sitting Next to the door entrance Counting, "14 24 53 95 14 24 53 95 14 24 53 95 14" R rests standing leaning back Against the wall next door entrance Speaking "Porch, poor, passage, entrance Screen door, hallway, corner Office exit, peeled orange" Not speaking "Take a disjunct thought Put it next to another Is this a tension?" A Tense situation depending On the time of day some Come for lunch others for breakfast Others later Others Eating fish or beef or pasta broccoli Fish on beef on pasta broccoli And fish the collection of those Inside trapped bound Discerned and baked

8/19/2003

9th and Olympic – Strength

5

Strength and character Lice itching Reading the paper under the Bridge waiting appointment at four Take each point Gold silver Iron needle Lustrous solid conductors pulling pulling But the position Is low talking Subtle instrument Within the algebra (geometry) the ticking Veins bouncing up against arms Spread out sleeping The beating Muscle pumping The cage is Circling the emotion (anger) as slapped Photos in A low voice When no production is telephone And forgotten As a pole That stands up and corrects "Her head Is chopped off And her breasts sag sag" Nominalism is portrayed in every The lice crawl Or do They wiggle along the paper Turns over hands holding it Car wind passing Same same Isolated words in Lines that Break into houses alone linked To others By kinship attached And hated on every page Newspaper lines Telling you to Slow the progress slow the Hand don't let it raise A string of New thought The good guys End up At Seventh and Broadway giving Away Charles Bukowski Books words That turn back into other Words that turn again into Another language of Spelled similar Meaning and The directions North Are lost in the pocket

8/15/2003

9th and Olympic – Tumult (Fuck a soap bubble)

4

the chaos has subsided it's July really? July? Take some files any files that have writing annoyed noisy needy not secure behind a gate looking out on a roof top pool this is the source completely expecting a person to appear appear you "used to describe" oh but rely on on anything speed doors closing closing weed it out: destroy precedes create or create precedes thepicture of a half half naked child running through the sprinklers in a swimsuit say 'peel' it subversive not the end that the synonym suggests might it silently change the smell that rises that floats the drain the pipes below feeding the thoughts further into

8/14/2003

9th and Olympic – What did you do it for?

3

well why pick up a piece of paper a cigarette burned down an aluminum can ok standing over a recycling can sticking one hand arm in then looking you know the lid lifts but it won’t lift never the leaf blower starts up

well why flows takes a piece from paper that a cigarette was burned under an aluminum can approve excessive of the situation a tin of recycling that sticks an arm of the hand in then watching knows the elevations to him of the cover but elevation of won’t never the blower of the leaf begins for above

well why a piece of the paper takes rivers the fact that a cigarette under an aluminum was burned can excessively approve from the situation a tin the recycling of this of the sticks, which an arm of the hand, if it watches out then, knows the elevators to it the cover, but the blower of the sheet for above begins elevator of won’t, never

8/13/2003

9th and Olympic - Scribbling

2

scribbling on the wall with a Sharpie scribbling one word no two words and the question subject is rejected stay out no one is allowed in this hotel lobby except guests: on the stairs leading to the door at foot level shiny shoes and slender heels walk by tennis shoes walk by it’s distance it’s close it’s persistent not then is it those things these that someone will call out without effect scribbling again the sharpie is flattened shifted to the left writing to the right side begin to open into a gated area where luggage stands waiting for luggage carriers damp crackers don’t crack chewing is reduced swallowing is easier: the devil pops out of the wall above the scribbles lecturing begins delay not begin grasping quit not survival lease it out take a condo in West Hollywood move in ice box dry ice vented for high summer temperatures the holding is lost around arms that were there reaching down pouring forth reaching up clinging to the little finger the nails, “oh they’re painted yellow reversible purple,” shiny is this a specified emotion feeling being communicated through a thirteen year old scratch it out scratch it out scratch scratch somewhere on Olympic the smell of Thai seasoning rises

devil pops out of the wall above the scribbles lecturing don’t crack chewing is reduced swallowing is easier: the out take a condo in West Hollywood move in ice box dry ice begins delay not begin grasping quit not survival lease it around arms that were there reaching down pouring forth vented for high summer temperatures the holding is lost they’re painted yellow reversible purple,” shiny is this a reaching up clinging to the little finger the nails, “oh thirteen year old scratch it out scratch it out scratch specified emotion feeling being communicated through a rises scratch somewhere on Olympic the smell of Thai seasoning no two words and the question subject is rejected stay out scribbling on the wall with a Sharpie scribbling one word stairs leading to the door at foot level shiny shoes and no one is allowed in this hotel lobby except guests: on the it’s close it’s persistent not then is it those things slender heels walk by tennis shoes walk by it’s distance again the sharpie is flattened shifted to the left writing these that someone will call out without effect scribbling luggage stands waiting for luggage carriers damp crackers to the right side begin to open into a gated area where

8/07/2003

9th and Olympic – Buicks

1

the buicks driving by are singing singing into each other into each tire spinning singing and spinning the base of each street light is darker than the area a foot above the base each area above the base glows glows blue fog rolls off the top of the poles and spills spills down into the street enveloping the singing buicks the spinning spinning tires back wash the condensation and each buick becomes a rocket engine floating floating over the road the buicks driving by are singing singing into each others ears driving by are singing singing into each others ears rocket engine floating floating over the road the buicks tires back wash the condensation and each buick becomes a street enveloping the singing buicks the spinning spinning off the top of the poles and spills spills down into the each street light is darker than the area a foot above the into each tire spinning singing and spinning the base of the buicks driving by are singing singing into each other

and

buicks that lead close is singing singing in one to in each singing that it rotates of the tire and to rotate the base of each light of street is darker than intensely shines the area on the foot on the base that shines intensely each area on the base blue fog falls the cover of posts and the spillings are spilled down in the street that surrounds buicks singing the tires that rotate that they rotate behind wash the condensation and each buick becomes a floating flotation of the space motor on the way buicks that leads close are singing to sing in each others the ears that lead close are singing singing in each others the floating flotation of the space motor of the ears on the way the tires of buicks behind wash the condensation and each buick becomes a street surrounding buicks singing doing to turn that it rotates of the cover of posts and of the spillings is spilled down in the each light of street is darker than the area on the foot on in each singing that rotates of the tire and to rotate the base of buicks that leads close it is singing singing in one

8/06/2003

12 Months on 7th - 12

12

be relative rather that one or the other one more stab at ending a habit that walks away toward Olympic counts souvenirs plastic bottles bags aluminum cans molding into flat plates a map a route H has taken many times walking stopping laughing loudly and speaking to the wall the building wall the entrance that says "no entrance today maybe tomorrow get a badge," but badges aren't anywhere I go no stores no pharmacies no cats gagging on saltine crackers the privilege or do you say "presence?" one or this one H is thinking a shower bottled water maybe 'soap' getup and into a falling water flowing "are you connected by blood?" soap and dirt remember those literary criticism classes? The questions flow down the street and sink into the 'big' hole to San Pedro did this did that that did this and (like in good novels) 'suddenly' the scene changes and suddenly H is in a room 20 dollars a night don't focus on the big picture just look down at the night stand table 4 bottles (small) of vodka 3 bottles of tequila 2 bottles of jack daniel's 1 bottle of aquavit all single shot bottles let's mix and match: back down on the cement someone is sleeping under a blue tarp no thinking but dreaming about eating ah, ah, ah, ah, ah, ah someone maybe 'you' does the speaking props up the intellectual thoughts (oh, ideas) Plato got stuck in the mud in/out in/out and onward walking along looking over the curb into the drain plastic bags on the brick sidewalk. Mr. Suitcases has found a grassy area by the 3rd Street tunnel

12.1

be relative something that one or another one plus a stab in finishing a habit that walks far

towards the plastic bottles of the Olympic memories of the accounts packs the tins of aluminum which they mold in

the flat plates a map that a route H has often taken that walked stopping to laugh in a high voice and speaking to the wall the wall of the building the entrance goes that that says entered the? no it obtains perhaps tomorrow a currency today? But aren't of currencies anywhere no warehouses no pharmacies no cats that gag ignition skips cakes the privilege or you dice "presence" or H is thinking of "soap about

skillful bottle of the water perhaps" getup and are that flows of the water that falls that you connected by blood? the soap and the dirt remember those literary classes of the critic: The questions flow under the street and they sink in a big hole to San Pedro did this did

the

one that did this and (like in good novels) "suddenly" the scene changes and H is suddenly in a room 20 dollars a center of don't suddenly at night in the right glance of the great

picture down in the bottles of the table the support at night (small) bottles of the tequila vodka 2 bottles of daniel's of the cat one single bottle of aquavit that all the bottles of the shot are mixed and

which they match: the back part down in the cement somebody is sleeping under tarp blue no thought but dreaming over eating ah, ah, ah, ah, ah, ah somebody questions "you" it makes the supports of speech upon the

intellectual thoughts (oh, ideas) that Plato in/out obtained to patch in the mud in/out and forwards walking throughout watching on the street one in the plastic purses of one in the sidewalk of the brick. Mr. Suitcases has found a grassy area by the 3rd tunnel of the street

8/05/2003

12 Months on 7th - 11

11

Watching stairs Then abandoning This is how the Narrative thought Details can be Little pieces pebbles Discerned the Thrown by tires Structure present Little pop eyes Pulling out an Pebbles talking Orange, "oh metaphor Chattering saying For terra" stairs "I picked up a bottle Lead the blind of wine this morning." To the ideas the After waking up. So Newspaper coverage Many drunken pebbles

No underwear these shorts are all that exist along with a t-shirt and old Nike's a cane and Converse hat leaning over breathing heavily cigarette in mouth delivering a nickel a dime a nickel a nickel to ride sitting "How are you?" was a telepathic 'hello' another person looks expectantly at: write a short note that describes the staircase... up, up, up "you" the big "I" that removes pieces of fingers severed by sums "stupid movie" oh shirt do "you" the I that inhabits this page grasp the ending of the movie?

8/03/2003

12 Months on 7th - 10

10

getup getup getup getup getup getup getup getup getup getup getup getup count them twenty four five people here count them talking talking to each other other incessantly talking getup getup getup getup getup getup getup getup getup getup getup getup getup getup getup pages of a magazine ripped out and dropped covering the floor the entry way the entrance the stair way leading in getup getup getup getup getup getup getup getup getup getup getup getup getup

8/01/2003

12 Months on 7th - 9

9

Blinding yellow light Hands hands grappling Gray faces through Closed eyes Through ripping Cloth through ...E's barely conscious, "see those?" Oxygen mask taped down "see Those?" Shoes off disinfectant hands Hands "See these Open wounds?" Figueroa is empty now no Cars none Walking head dead Package under the left arm Newpapers under the right taken Earlier in the Morning while Looking for money for breakfast While waiting While the "It's Simply not Ok to steal from others." The big face Said while waiting Tucking the package behind the Tire of A parked Honda Civic with Orange green Trim while waiting Sitting forward fingers wrapped around His neck to Stop talking To stop Blood flow to Stop the catapults from firing To stop The rock hurled Over the high walls into Stop the invading the ones Who don't stop Who stop Flashlights waving flares burning while Waiting while Waiting while blind

7/31/2003

12 Months on 7th - 8

8

working off the fat of the last hundred years is hard. H has to stop and read each sign that comes to him. the buses are harder to read the repetition though finally announces the subject never does it change until one morning another sign has replaced not z, y, x ever or find a plasma tv in a store window (usually it's just alluded) take a prone state and watch silently for hours or minutes or seconds. his coat sleeve is torn around the buttons (watching the hole) loose threads single gray brown black blue from the hole a head appears big white teeth laughing jerking around, "take the signifier, apple," the face is bright red and disappears through the front door all is silent except for the occasional bus or car take the preposition and place it in the can take a verb and drop it after a name: two big feet seeing nothing but staying still a halo glows from the window

7/30/2003

12 Months on 7th - 7

7

"can each part be as important?" H is reading the L.A. Times opinion section from from from 2 weeks ago, ago. "can each word be..." H looks up at the 7th Galleria, "is it whole?" forget it. stamped on the, stamped on the sidewalk, stamped on the sidewalk is a Che Guevara silhouette. two buses roll by (what subject?) to South Park Staples Center and on, on and the flies hover overhead waiting to land circling waiting for the grammar to correct itself waiting for the punctuation to end and reappear as if: they… the period, comma, exclamation, quotation marks would cross the street to be with the downtown library. oh shit! up the street a man is walking fast eyes furiously looking for a slow walker one walker with a wallet. CRASSSHHH! "oh, sorry." And on down the cement walking path he went H gets up and turns around

7/29/2003

12 Months on 7th - 6

6

W can't tie his shoes this morning no bending no reaching no one to hear what is written "oh at odds," identity and the walking up the street footstep after footstep, "what do you do with it," now isn't interesting enough for a remembered breakfast in St. Louis or Peoria – OK remember all that no one is really behind it all: the temperature has dropped 10 degrees you can't do this well and do another better drop it in a trash can think it can be learned the technique and good 'god' work at it over and over and over

7/28/2003

12 Months on 7th - 5

5

one being the two being again one then following street lights standing 500 meters apart (not L.A. language) the bus driver pulls over the doors open looking ahead after looking at her watch the same subject and people: pardonable acts on the staircase blanket martyr man walking in open toed shoes asking for nothing not nothing to ask for to begin the stop watch and stop it as if going to the end was a knowledgeable knowing all not all anyway self conscious impression mirrored in the restaurant windows faces looking back amid the others "is it impression really, or the need to know?"

5.1

one that is both that they are again lights of a street of following that are stopped 500 meters of separated (L.A non-language.) the pulls of the driver of the bus on the doors the same subject and people open to anticipate after watching its clock: the acts pardonable in the stairs cover the man with martyr that walks in the shoes touched with the end of the foot open which they do not request anything nothing not to request to begin the shutdown clock and to stop it as if going to the end or it was informed knowing all not all anyway reflected conscious impression of the one same one in the faces of the windows of the restaurant which they seemed back in the middle of others "is the impression really it, or the necessity to know"

7/27/2003

12 Months on 7th - 4

4

incrustation around the lid of the peanut butter jar empty fixed in character variable in extent pointing north dash board compass saying "supernatural events influenced by..." to the naked (no glasses, lenses, laser cuts) eye pulled by the thirteenth letter of the alphabet – surrender get down on your knees and kiss the cement (imagine the dirt below) dream about a cocktail from the fifties remember? The electric train went to Corona went to Long Beach:

4.1

incrustation around to the premises of the specified protection of the emptiness of the bottle of character of the peanut in the 0 variables of the letter in the width, of that has the reference that the compass of the north of the cover of the warning of the introduction interested of directed "supernatural of the cases... (the crystals of glass, are against, cut to him of the laser) with the luminous eye cocktail of marked years 50, the end to remember if of tenth letter three of the transmission of the extensions of the alphabet for deeply inside his nose and covered the glue ideal (the dirt for smoothly is I use fact), ignited? the course that the electrical worker was to the crown was to regulate the length in the beach:

4.2

incrustation around to the premises of the specified protection of the emptiness of the bottle of character of the peanut in the 0 variables of the letter in the width, of that has the reference that the compass of the north of the cover of the warning of the introduction interested of directed "supernatural of the cases... (the crystals of glass, are against, cut to him of the laser)with the luminous eye cocktail of marked years 50, the end to remember if of tenth letter three of the transmission of the extensions of the alphabet of for deeply inside his nose of and covered the of glue ideal of (the dirt for smoothly of is I use fact), of ignited? the course that of the electrical worker was to the crown of was to regulate the length of in the beach:

4.3

incrustation of protection of of width, of north of interested of crystals of. with the of end of: transmission of inside of smoothly of electrical of length of

7/26/2003

12 Months on 7th - 3

3

The bed is Centered against the forward wall A toilet A lavatory cold water only A window Above the porcelain Wooden floor No rug single bed directly Across from a Door north Picture hanging to the left Low drawers east No landscape not Interior either as no cycle Or imitation Before now Cement floors bars a bench Low ceiling twelve Others staring into each others Eyes waiting for Movement waiting To go Forget this Smell to Forget this waiting To walk away to walk The room is Four floors is Up stairs musty smell is Another scent is The memory beauty Is once enjoyed Once repelling once Remembered once A spiritual experience an agreement (a dead angel fallen once) The pigeons come in the window Shitting all Over the room Plastic sheeting covers the bed Only for sleeping All else Is layered by years by Dust in those layers by Remnants of moisture in lines The pigeons come in the window Shitting all Over the room Plastic sheeting covers the bed Only for sleeping All else Is layered by years by Dust in those layers by Remnants of moisture in lines

7/25/2003

12 Months on 7th - 2

2

the clouds are never puffy here haze on a complete layer of flat gray clouds lays over 7th beat the sidewalk with an old broken umbrella black and torn they say "terror" when walking the stopped escalator it's strife when the huge fountain is stopped it's lies when the doors are closed and locked it's vengeance when the spotlight and booming voice (speaker) awakes you at 5am: throw a rock and it misses no one notices "get up and go to the Mission." intemperance when pulled into county jail and let go at 3am to walk seven blocks altercation with the staffing sergeant about the lost blanket the bag of cans the fear that invites exhilaration the hardening and tension the fingers temples battle screaming alternating "they are assholes, you are a mother fucking scum shit face," please forget the murder the son against the mother

7/24/2003

12 Months on 7th - 1

1

walking in from Commerce, after riding the train in from Fontana. Cold June early morning. Kerouac is dead, Ginsburg, Neal/Dean, oh fuck even Burroughs... but not Ashbery, Ferlinghetti, Strand – forgot Bowles dead – the map of the unloving/unborn unfolds. a critic asks, "do you care about the time line?" well (long drawl) does it all happen in sequence? Or in parallel sequential waves?

7/23/2003

Pico and Olympic

The corners are curved here with access to the street for handicapped persons. Step the wrong way and you will have a sprained ankle and then be handicapped. Remember to aim for the middle of the ramp and bounce up as you hit the lip of the slightly raised curb; you will glide over and onto the sidewalk with ease. Beware of your speed at this point, you may be going to fast and might endanger others and yourself. Drop it into first gear quickly and brake. Look around before:

Your sides Split with laughter No walking here While watching the news Your sides Ache from laughter No walking here Split with laughter Watching the walking trip Stay away from doors Watch the walking fall Stay away from windows Watch the walking crawl Stay away from stairs

The contrast from ten = explaining – (talking x silence) Forget the equation(s): pull forward and park Drop the anchor Call out for Rum

‘The tears of love Flow down my face Creases of skin spread The water’s flow To the corners of my mouth Where it spits away from my head Slapping you in the face, The Red Rose Of Love, the thorns slicing your Arms as you (they) draw away in pain’

The brightness from nine = silence + (explaining / talking) Click on the calculator: reach for the sparkling water Reach for the lemon wedge Step on the accelerator Spin around Tightly

Struggling around Dropping bread Unsteady and crying From a bag Watching the pigeons To the ground Pecking pecking pecking Pecking pecking pecking Watch the pigeons peck Knock on the windows Watching the pigeons eat Knock on the doors Watching the pigeons land On the stairs

7/22/2003

Alpine Street at Grand cont.

4

They say "This Is Alpine Street," they say It because It is A DWP truck Rolls up to the corner Rolls to a stop: while While while "So you see" That is Grand No one is allowed to Pee pee On Grand Exposed these words A deception Water gushing upward No one Saying it's gushing The play "the word" sincerity Drop it Internalize it while it is Dropping dried snot Wisdom past Erinnyes speaking through Bad teeth Good wrath clean water beautiful Bodies locked Together turkey sandwich Tortillas beans rice coffee cream Dreams that followed me talking Incessantly evaporation that Turns the Street the Walls into the Words reflected by images Hepburn Driving the point on the 18th following into 19th never Watching only acting never impulsive Always impulsive in Details in lower Case words so You see This is Alpine street

7/21/2003

Alpine at Grand

3

Screaming again Backed into a Doorway blackness dark night and Screaming louder again No sleeping a version truth Some praise Grand version of Truth one that is never Reached just Space (inner) a Story about the lack of Available light drawn Lost irrelevant suffering Acquired through… Time is defined in decades Third to fourth the deeds Change from words To actions Divided between known Anger driving through the street Red black Thoughts reeling over over in Deflecting verbal continuity Screaming against The darkness stillness A car Hits a fire hydrant water Gushing fifty Feet high next To a street lamp water Creating a Shadow on the sidewalk and Street the car Is gone no One arrives It’s time for a shower Clothes off quickly washing washing Stop screaming stop Itching so

7/20/2003

Alpine Street at Grand

2

"Fuck me" The words rise And fall into a hole Single view double view one Eye blind The perspective trips Over the... walking Back then again forth to The sam' Corner fly’s Following my arms Babbling, "Fuck me, fuck you." Point to front right tires Those cars stopped The light Changes and the Thought is gone with the Vehicle the Vehicle the Cup it In your hand "Selected information" facts Say them if Promote them if you if “You promised you did” if Canaan meets my eyes if Capacity reaches if "Fuck me" will note that this isn't Pornography but the imagination in... Eager minds to learn if Subject noun "Oh love poems" I love Them they make... Cross the street yes again Cross the street around yes Reaching into a Pocket for some change a Quarter maybe a Dime who Who has dimes? "Fuck me" Corner crossed

7/19/2003

Alpine Street at Grand

1

Fatty matter Pearly smoky growing Light passing contact that sits Feeling the weight The over Belt hanging sun that's setting Peeing again this time on The grass against The tall Plants vary Then sit Stomach at attention Tie a loop Of rope is This gaining access? Keeping Possessions secret from you? that Esophagus around the basket handle Fearfully forced Into a parting Neck line Ceased and stopped Begun pushed Across by thumbs Is it Disdain? The pages flip over Stop at sketching Yellow grass Within the last time week That isn’t concise to turning The doorknob and entering thrown Confused you that Larynx sounding rough Take this the Distress the Substance the Regret but No guilt you Say "humiliation is How commitment is Gauged in equity." Oyster shining shrinking You can Smell the rotten acuteness in Vertical alpine meadows reach up Openly take out the blanket

7/18/2003

4th and Wall

6

from 4th and Wall walking to Crocker past San Pedro past it's language spell or letter it and ask anyone if and why they understand it "Do you?" the reader, are you really reading these words and if so "Do you really give a shit?" what does syntax and meaning mean to you? anything? do you understand "signifiers?"

the train from Fontana derailed in Commerce "oh we were hungry." do you know what an artifact is? and do you really... an eye on the ground one in the air deception, reality words from the LA Times

7/17/2003

4th and Wall

5

the temperature is lower in the alleys lower even here but it's Santa Monica only low clouds June weather June weather warming up Wilshire Blvd toward La Brea sings out of stores out of clothing stores:

since having all toes removed walking is a breeze a free feeling tonight the drinks will flow flowing into your mouth into your thoughts "Is this your house?"

Can I park my car? Where do you know me from and why? A person a man a woman a full time bitch car salesman beggar fearful husband pre-owned and proud loser of fortunes stand up and take you're fucking clothes off it's a prize some wish

for wish for then forget wish for then forget

7/16/2003

4th and Wall

4

put some glasses on read a so many sounds ears back forward nose sniffing the air in figure it round it well out someone in black with badges rides by and points to the left a cement mixer stops and several people walk around waiting taking tubes and attaching them to a long line take one moment express a feeling express a noticeable feeling scratch those sun spots those teary eyes that don’t focus would you be able to see if this Minnesota garden left you blind and debilitated with multiple sclerosis are we confused you and me walking back and forth