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10/30/2003
Los Angeles & 3rd - 1
1
what where run of tents sun side three foot spots
marked "get out of the 5 dollar a night to
night" tent box tent box C's left eye going black
slippers E's tennis shoes
mark it internal pulled up guttural pulled out heart towing
E sits against a fence head back sleeping sun side
facing "it's not that hazy" an end or means action
E stands scratching smiling across
the intersection has mastery over his thinking
viewing rationality focusing
hair gel as myth as created who in what where
inter-science un-reiterate re-if-ication un-enchant produced-ed along
the box housing neighbor
C blinks away the in-fection tries
buckle it up where what smiling big smile E loves
C loves her adapted a-domination her engineering her character planted
spot in E's for-head tent box box tent moving process
matter it bodies-y up ward
10/29/2003
Santee Alley 2
2
walk -away from the fashion district
don't –press down enact not acting set
I –and you over be I merely
of -conceptions
but –nor than forgets then by thoughts tell
no –but this and that your where except
and –have into that for therefore and so
will –that and were to
to –that and that to dangerous ban
quet –know hard know love use gentle of
yourself –glass yourself hear me myself
me –eyes yoke of in heard
eye –turn lament just things itself face?
cogitation –buried passion men
war –neglect on grieved behavior
myself –difference am
countenance –look you hand have gentle
ness –late you desire in part do I
course –pass march again upon face march
hear –music me again calls
10/28/2003
Santee Alley 1
1
historian through (of in) hogwash looped/
fastened who obtains periods through (of in) possession maintain
avoid "brought forth at birth"
explore the finger then the
thumb: pack rations grant a "the"
turn the chairs a quarter turn them proceeding past
lisping: B walks (reader intervention) importance taken you u
(of in) sloth exercise forms
reb-ell-ion reforms(ed) as one avoids
advantage advent edge inferior, 'the flower
in her hair blossoming-ing' a sun
dried heart be-be-beating Adonis (simile)
yours smelling lime likely diluted in a glass a
(of in) seas roiling er-coursing adding drops water (arrived)
or not B walks hand around
knob door twisting isting arrogate [claim without justification]
shoulders pushed forward standing chin chest
today sullen minus one sullen minus two sullen three
days ago prescript pre-jacket
pre-silence counting (of in) connect
silence pre-blue eyes count looks of loving of
love method pre-strained as power
hogwash historian (of in) looped through/obtaining-ed fast
to possession to possessed unfast hold
"forth brought avoid birth at"
10/23/2003
5th at Stanford
5th at Stanford
a long line of ants crawl
ing up Stanford heading to Fifth: Styrofoam Thai food
H looks up and sees them disappear reappear
over a rise in the cement
line long stumbling pockets (not think)
that walk to the next corner
re-occur as as food waiting waiting so
5th at Central
shelter light rows of sixty cycle
sing B flat hymns – hums rings explanations of absolute
sanding controlling
as
the window from
as
peeking in of
5th at Alameda
derived from objects tossed
high
re-arrange mis
represent several
as fuel current vegetables
standing saying "extreme symptoms"
achieving supervised house
terms (round) turned
suitcases piling up ov
er jogging back to step it
5th at San Pedro Street
racing across 5th H stumbles and falls
nerve pinches gray beard "do you have a
cigarette?" pencil pocket 12 things thinking
about the stair case is a
slammed up against the frozen pushed over
thawed through the corner drain at
San Pedro for
10/22/2003
Beaudry at Wilshire
B bites down harder
hard, hardly more than content
as B who figured the bits
what lay between two fingers
the content the cultural
lines without spoken a fault line
words in course showing a forced
lacking personally giving conversion break
it open to two
bits, bites, down harder:
screw torture turning finally this
"someone left a package on
the train what the
fuck" officer Joan proclaimed out
it's pervasive no pervasive him she
it's big and round dramatic
inconsistent enemy shadow open
mass conversions playing Mozart to Berio
some single string wooden plank
ed instrument without hang
ing suspected to bite it hard
er in precise time to do
to do to do
marked duo decimal not two
in four but opposite siding quad
equally obliquely hard harder
sounds identical between words
Beaudry at 7th
W wakes up and realizes she is on the sidewalk
remembers someone throwing her out on the street
someone throwing her out on the street the street
passing between 1 = 6 and the late bus to Monterey
Park 496 (they they took took the the numbers down
last night) squeaking door – "Portia playing the violin
in the alley the dark alley money falls down she's
wealthy" the electronics store has no silence that's
re-newed it's up delightful from 8 am to 12 pm take
a piece of paper write the word you relate to and post
them in an electronic format (if you can find) see the
result results broken nose fingers ankles around
the examination table grounded in eyes for obscenity
scrutiny etc. that censorial obligation in any corporate
partner single owner-ship ex-pur-gate place
a candle on the table "light up my life" edit and delete
no matter what it's consisting of cells instruments drawn
from a fragrance your mother wore to 'Ray Charles'
cede cede cede let it up stop take the sign as written the
'Terms Of Service' the T=O=S toss it the bricks up to the
next man toss the cement up to the next man toss the bricks
up toss the shit away it's given some the idea pickled
sturgeon cave like existence shrouded in stucco hidden protected
bye bye 'bye blackbird' petty objectionable bodies considering
what that though may have at it's outer center a divided
area W wakes up in the main activity a cardiac care
unit meditating on a 'Carlin' rant a Shakespeare rant
coupled with oxygen bottled around Beckett's neck
while a pivot revolves into mid points points points points
points points all thrown out
10/21/2003
Beaudry at 6th
1
"presumably no one tells you what to say write
read" the sign (lettered without numbers) the big red
wig and funny nose – the clown is walking with B and speak
ing: parody play pretense purse
purveyor placatory pretending to pronounce
cartoon-ish people pacing back to confront to con
strain "don't you see it?" no put some history behind it
put a pencil behind your ear
and sing 'if I were a stinger missile a sting
er bee' I would hallucinate a beautiful
world one where... walking at night slicing throats of homeless ones
who who who and put gasoline
in bottled water bottled beer bottled devils
reality never ever ever broken ev
en when weighing it remember to take into account
the water weight the Mayor may
not of have presumed that 9th Street became Olym
pic Blvd. at San Julian no movement definite
resent, revenge (no regret) malignant (watch those turns doesn't
really... early end) B thinks foot
ball and some end, tight. happening three (3) times
1.2
"presumably nobody says what to say to him writes read"
the sample (putting letters without numbers) the great
red wig and the amused nose - the clown is walking with
B and of the speech: the pretending placatory of the
purveyor of the of pre-tightens of the game... of parody to
pronounce the people of the comic strip-ish-ish that establishes
the step again to faces towards "don't of the tension that
you see it?" no position a certain history behind him put
a pencil behind its ear and sings "if that was a missile
of the sting to the bee of the puncture" would hallucinate
a beautiful world one where... walking at night which it
slices the throats of nomads who who that and gasoline
put in water in bottle it bottled the beer never bottled
in always always broken of every of the reality of the
devils to the grief it remembers to consider the
weight of the water that the Mayor could of
not have been concealed which 9th street
became Olympic Blvd. and San Julian
no returned salary to send
defined of the movement,
revenge (no grief)
bad (really
watches
don't of those returned early end)
B thinks the ball of the foot firmly and a certain end,
happening three (3) times
10/16/2003
Beaudry at 5th
he says "let go of description, keep it in the background" lower
the attenuate it separate of controlled 'be-ing' after the
sun sets fog plastered in Santa Monica B watches her
reflection break between window panes frame to pane
to frame to pane hand to face "a sure tooth" a revival of
medical conditions against remedial economic condition
als pre-conditions "is" and walk by another frame or frame
not no (lost: as in death) one
says attention to description background it in keeping "lower"
turn them all down turn over one by one little hot cakes grow
ing the pan battered and is it 5th or 6th the time is left
the timing becomes Arco Plaza pavé walkway ("someones idea
of a french man reflecting on reality") the pain killers
stop work-ing free-ing test-ing
Beaudry at 4th
1
hospital gown flip flops change rolling pocket to
to a district crying dis-regarding all notice of
community friendly-ness posted on a concrete light
pole intentionally care-less pointer on the dial points
up and to the right up and to the left culpable points
to another line: you've you are are you of the in
difference negotiated in attention or in any agreement
ob-stacle that "necrosis in the left and right lower
extremities" needles against the back-drop or gray
(anti-skyline) disjunct, squares square leading to rolling
pocket change handed out during lunch during commute
during not not not not not not not not not not. is
around the corner oriented in final right left-ness
2
to the failures of pull of the dress of the hospital
change the pocket of the balance district that it
shouts without paying attention to all the warning of
friendly-ness of slight the indicating community fixed
to neglected a concrete one of the post intentionally
in the points of the dial raises and to the right raises
and the left guilty points to another line: you've you
are you are you of in the difference negotiated in the
attention or any obstacle in the agreement "necrosis
in left and right the lowest extremities" the needles
against the context or (against-horizon) disjunct gray,
square of the squares that leads to the balance that the
change of pocket distributed during lunch during exchanges
during are not around the left-ness corner oriented in
straight final
10/15/2003
Beaudry at 3rd
it isn't something to step in front of
at 4 in the morning
even a pigeon
knows that if B steps
forward and doesn't
look right or left then evenings dreaming is
lost: so pulling up Eliot's (old)
stakes and moving (fields)
the circus to Olsen's house B's eyelids flutter
hospitals blues plastic shower cap
flip flops, evolved
by nature and repeated over each act "you
can't paint it"
pound it in till it is instantly an
example a behavior a principle
something isn't stepping a front in of to
pigeons a even the 4 morning in the
toes hanging swinging
over the ground (cement shelf)
singing "paint the sky blue" in a Brazilian
dance band four eight five six it up
into statements statement
stemming into quietly you you
10/10/2003
Beaudry at 2nd
should you speak it (or not) when driving
when sleeping envious acting portrayed while burning
in the reflection off 80 stories of glass:
B waits and waits again
to show it as a sign or flag but not
seeming to sincerity pulling out Fromm and
feeling better as the hand is, the pocket (should
you speak it) a cash transaction "oh, nostalgia
mingles with September" speak it driving or not
when when as if worshiped but forgetting to
it the glass lip is flared in the flies swimming
die anyway pulled back after extending into
the street and back distinct anxiety returning
unbroken viewing continuous (it isn't the
events it's not the events) though meaning presently
is the speaker speaking unintentional sucked back
coughed out of the bronchial presented upon the
contracted literalist disappearing perspectively
away time marked by drawings of marine and plant life
B waits one more that thirteen no frail matching
enclosed supported unsupported structure "encouraged
to yell" hey hey hey hey hey hey hey hey hey hey hey
hey hey hey hey hey hey hey hey hey hey hey
hey hey hey hey hey hey hey hey hey hey hey
hey hey hey hey hey hey hey hey hey hey hey
hey hey hey hey hey hey hey hey hey hey hey
it isn't echo or myth and fire isn't always stolen
or blown by winds of hilly seas comparative
ly sentenced to short syllabic words, how
do you get absolute from a smothered murder?
B waits one more than fourteen unable not failing
wrapped up not lingering (if there is hunger then it
is dirt and rocks) no tongue licks however in
ears, do you remember "should you speak it"
10/9/2003
Beaudry at First
to to to to conceptualize to
reduce/renew a stable house/meaning to
act inward away from the an outward larynx to
oppose that tertiary thinking that written to
us/you as terms: life-less plus equals some
one you/us know as secondary as as
sociation arguing (under her breath) then
writing in this concrete wall was a pre-speech a fore
warning undecided structured with
in: under B's hat floating moths talking to
the examining lice both obdurate "no please
listen to me" oh fuck off up at the Bonaven
ture moth-1 says "get this unspecified
decided thing out of your mouth" moth-2 "I won't
take a position, not now" (Pound rolls over Der
rida) lice-1 looks up at the street sign "say something emo
tionally rinding!" forget Carey Grant
forget that movie with Spencer and Hepburn
forget them all pull together your cameras
survey it agree that you don't know if it's a fit
an intuitive issue your inten
tion and lip flapping as if you knew before
you spoke you you you equations of speech of
tonguing to to to to to to to
10/3/2003
Sunset at Beaudry
parallel to the Harbor freeway P's feet
slip from out from her robe that's the
pain used as interchangeably as means
to a rest put a rest put and and and
suggesting abate-ment mercy in justice
justice is signatures lined along
side exactly opposite (not exactly) on
hardened narrow street like as each toe
pulls slightly apart the air between 'the
fresh air of morning cooling in the glow of the
orange sunrise' P pulls out a letter and
reads: Dear P, you have been cordially invited
to a cocktail fund raiser at the Disney
Hall BBQ and Ball. Please rsvp by 12
12 12 12 12 1960 and and then eye
up arm down leg forward 'ah Allah'
take or pick up one letter at the beginning
forget that the time tells you to awake
awake and then then then conduct just
maintenance brooms on Sunset at Beaudry
and the proceeding continue: "Oh, horrible, oh
horror, it's not a manner that's worthy"
open it up reduce comparisons along statements
about statements of playing fair interchang
ing your view that the time is telling you to
"wake up and sing along with the beautiful
world, world" raise it rear it respect
nothing nor nourish those little rates (rats)
keep keep keep walking keep walking pull out
that Woody Guthrie record and sing along "I'm
leaving the border for a former life and job
just let me stay I'll pretend to belong"
10/2/2003
6th and Spring - fall pre-fall
F picks up paper trash cups leaves from
the gutter sidewalk humming and singing
quietly "I'm free to fall to fall fall" down
a stretch of 2nd street after walking away
losing sense of time streets: maintenance
careful temperate roving pages corners turned
up folded over a face mayor Hahn against
a Palestinian victims arm bleeding. up up
into the bag into the can as not opposing
moderately reactions resulting joined
practically sing "my editor editor-ditor
wants more syllabics syls... labs... ics
ics... icsss" down down into the bag bag
go bag saving the city from the massive
trash piling on every street every Homeric-
ic-ic, "would you call this environmentalism?"
(surfeit) protection safe guarding conservationist singing
Woody Guthrie 'Deportivo' one way two way
roasted almonds on white toast miles out
on the 101 to Ventura dotted:
from West valley Division
bused to Van Nuys
hearing sentencing
bused to LA county
mens...
can you stay awake for days? it's physics, so they say
at NYU or USC or UCLA or Berkeley or Stanford or John
Hopkins, it's
Adverse to change not subject to adverse ness ness
Take the external thought (some think it's action)
F pulls up his trousers
10/1/2003
6th and Spring - late late summer
why would she be defamed not only dead not only
those (these) are the questions that can be asked whether
looked at blindly/blank like: hit it hard take
a word that no one (almost) knows/understands
pick one power mixer with "wide" expression P listens
carefully not knowing more though Iago walks back
wards perhaps permanently unstructured no longer
seeing through Punctuation, the picture or pictures
that line walls thrown mutable still eyeballs never
silent varia-tions whether dis-figured re-cripples
ignorant grumbling "it's genre" it's billboards roman
tic violent visions of a thousand fucking in the
hills of Hollywood complete lust-land chemical helicopter
sprayed full moon August "this isn't about self denial."
it "I" has its place and arises everywhere every
often making its victim "I" break down buy a gallon
of gasoline and light up spell sections editorial souls
out in third world space (person) the rocks between
Mars and the dust in my eye "I" isn't a sum re
lation on earth in perpetual description walk out de
scribe walk in experience the exact speech but don't re
member how it fit or how its des-cent echoed back
singing:
(she's hiding in the bushes
more or less a bride
uncommon but luscious
unsteady violently right
it's free & open
the nature in her backyard
it's honest 'oh, man'
the oranges
the grapefruit
the limes
the limes, 'oh, man')
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